Monday, July 20, 2020

This Pandemic Has Thrown Me Off Kilter Again!

                 I can be honest, I am not myself anymore. I've opened up my mouth too much and I just don't why I wanna run my mouth especially about CBOTW when I have put enormous amount of hours and work into the site and team since all these changes have been made. I need to learn to keep my comments to myself especially when it comes to this here website. I know the motivation is still there but I feel like I've dragged myself with the lack of sleep lately where I am tired non stop 24-7. Not sure how on earth I get through the work load anymore to be honest with you all. I haven't been myself since being put into isolation and only out for walks and trips to the corner store on a weekly basis. However to not be able to have friends over or go hangout with friends it bothers I cannot do any of that anymore. However I find the same repetitive thing with the workload is becoming a bit of a pain in the butt but what else can I really do minus work, play games, watch T.V. and Movies. Nothing really, it's really brought me down recently and I just do not know how much longer I can hold on.... 

                To be honest my depression hasn't gotten any better and you probably can tell by my lack of updates or posts as I normally do. However I try to keep you guys up to date as much as possible and I am going to try to post a bit more or even get my Community Manager to post updates if I am not up to it. For those who really know me, I have autism and there has been days I have not taken my meds which is not a good thing really and I need to stay on the meds and I'm sure it will help with my moods but I haven't been in the best of moods lately. Really there has been day's I just did not care enough to work on things but I try to do enough work for the day and then have fun. With the way I'm feeling right now I may have to lower my exceptions for the day and even take an hour break here and there to just get myself motivated again, so maybe I need to work a daily schedule and maybe I need to schedule some time off but I will be taking a bit of time to myself once Power Rangers Wild Force is done. I napped till 130 pm yesterday so spent the entire night working hard  on posts for the week so this way I can focus on finishing up Wild Force and typing up notes and get recording. We may just get one done next week and another one the week after if possible. I know I have to get moving on Ninja Storm and Dino Thunder for October but I promise I will take a weekend off before starting the next set of seasons!


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