Change Can Be Hard!

              I admit in the past it wasn't easy for me and still isn't from time to time and that is how I have honestly been feeling since once again leaving YouTube. Recently with the change of not doing the podcast on video once again. As you know in the last week it hasn't been good since I got home a few weeks ago from holidays. Ever since it has been hell trying to catch up and get back on a routine. Routine right now isn't too good but with the podcast from last week today at Noon EDT, it will be good to try and get things out on time tomorrow and Friday. I just gotta keep a positive attitude through these rough times. Just gotta make sure I make the time. My problem was I had no time but the bigger issue was I have not been myself honestly, down depressed cause I kind of felt like I let you guys down with the lack of being on a schedule. I know I have tried to promise to stay on the right track for you guys but recently found it extremely hard to stay on the right track. I kind of blame myself for it as I never recovered after the trip and wish I made time as I had that one day all to myself to get caught up on things and there was also a morning that I was up early but other nights I was up half the night unable to sleep and what not so that did not help whatsoever but finally was able to sleep at night and ready to continue to make up for what I have fallen behind on and on schedule again as of tomorrow night.


               Change can be hard and as I stated above, I have not had the easiest time with adjusting to the change honestly. You just have to try and adjust and if you have to adjust scheduling like I have done over time but sometimes it doesn't seem to work so you just gotta figure it out. I know it is not easy but you have to keep on trucking and never give up. I never really did that but yea I really thought about it honestly. There was a point the other day I was ready to say the heck with Everything About Reality TV but then again you guys reminded me why the heck I am doing this podcast and I have had one heck of a run so far and it's nowhere near finished yet and plenty of more episodes and seasons to come. I just gotta keep it up and hoping and saying a prayer for guidance as the last few weeks haven't been the easiest thing for me honestly but it just gives me more oomph to keep on going with the podcast. Yes there will be a day when my podcast will stop all together but I have said this many times in the past that I do have a plan and in time you will know. Last point I would like to make in this post one of the most hardest changes I had to make was the departure and retired from YouTube back in 2016. It took me about 1.5 years to get the hang of things honestly and still hard even to this day. Change can be dealt with but you have to be able to adjust and let the change happen slowly but surely. Trust me it doesn't happen overnight, it will just take some time. Patience is indeed a virtue and you just gotta be patient through the change.




Chris 

This Week Hasn't Been a Great Week For Me...

               This week hasn't been the greatest week for me in the way of Chris B On The Web. This week, I feel like I have let myself down, let YOU guys the fans down with not following my podcast schedule this week. Yea my mood this week has been up and down and been feeling like why am I doing this if I cannot handle the scheduling side of things but I know I can! Just I need to start getting into bed earlier and get my sleep back on the right track could be the one of the issues I could be having. Usually and I do not talk about my schedule publicly minus to me posting up pictures Behind The Scenes here in my studio that is all you guys really know. I try and aim to record in the early morning so it gives me hours to edit as it is released in the evening but sometimes I have appointments, friends to see but you guys still have the # 1 priority and I hate to disappoint you guys honestly and that is how I am feeling this week, like I've let you guys down. However I made it up with posting up the episode today at 3 pm EST which is currently already out for you guys as you are all reading this after it got posted up. Also I think I have had the YouTube blues as I haven't been on the platform in almost 3 years creating content for you guys. Starting to miss it but I know I have to realize that I retired from YouTube and nothing can really change that as I missed the chance to keep it on going no matter what. Honestly the podcast has done extremely well on the Audio ONLY and has been nothing but a huge success.


                I also have to realize the state of YouTube now compare to when I was still on the darn platform it has changed rapidly. Maybe I kept on thinking about it over and over again which got me into those bit of depression moods again which I rather not get into em as they sometimes last a couple of days till I get out of it. I rather try and stay in a happy state of mind but I guess it can be the way my body is from time to time I guess.  Yes we all get the blues here and there but I think partly is the weather is the blame as the weather here has been changing non stop lately and could have a factor too. Either way, I will figure it out why I am feeling this way and I am sure it will pass in time.




Chris