Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 10, 2019

My Mental Health Is Better Then It Has Been!

              I can be honest with you guys, my mental health has been better then it has been. I mean with friends turning on me this year, my mental health got bad again and I really had to deal with hence one of the reasons I stopped volunteering this year to deal with myself first. My mental health and well-being is the upmost importance to me at this time. I have been working on getting myself a lot happier and it has been honestly an uphill battle especially with dealing with Everything About Reality TV and what I really wanna do if I wanted to continue or just call it quits with it and honestly I think this one of the reasons I have been down and not myself as this podcast has really brought me down and I can say 4 years, 12 seasons, over 240 + Episodes it is the right time to stop the podcast and move on and I am happier now with the right decisions. I have to think what is best for me and makes me the happiest and this is the best decision. Now with friends, like I said I know who my friends are after losing 2 friends I know who my real friends are and happy with the friends I got right now. I am feeling so much better that I have control of my own life and not let anyone get in the way. Eric really opened up my mind in the past few weeks and has made me think so that has helped me.


                I can say I am in a much happier place now and nothing will stop my happiness and one thing I am planning on doing is staying positive and it has helped me as the more positive I am the better things are for me. I have been thinking things a lot more clearly and sometimes I will talk things out in my studio and figure things out. Also I have been thinking about the pros and cons of things and honestly it has helped me. Either way I am a lot happier and able to think clearly, however with my podcast ending, it will really help me clear up but give me a few weeks and the motivation and happiness will be up but right now I have to focus on finishing up the podcast then take the next step. That is another thing, I am able to take baby steps and one step at a time as some things are a step by step but I have to also take one day at a time and that seems to help as well. Either way I am a happy go lucky person and my happiness is what matters as I do not want to go back into a depression ever again, I want to remain happy. I know in the end it is not easy even with someone that has autism since I was young and I just have to somehow deal with it and with the tools I have been given, I need to continue to follow it. 



Chris

Saturday, March 16, 2019

This Week Hasn't Been a Great Week For Me...

               This week hasn't been the greatest week for me in the way of Chris B On The Web. This week, I feel like I have let myself down, let YOU guys the fans down with not following my podcast schedule this week. Yea my mood this week has been up and down and been feeling like why am I doing this if I cannot handle the scheduling side of things but I know I can! Just I need to start getting into bed earlier and get my sleep back on the right track could be the one of the issues I could be having. Usually and I do not talk about my schedule publicly minus to me posting up pictures Behind The Scenes here in my studio that is all you guys really know. I try and aim to record in the early morning so it gives me hours to edit as it is released in the evening but sometimes I have appointments, friends to see but you guys still have the # 1 priority and I hate to disappoint you guys honestly and that is how I am feeling this week, like I've let you guys down. However I made it up with posting up the episode today at 3 pm EST which is currently already out for you guys as you are all reading this after it got posted up. Also I think I have had the YouTube blues as I haven't been on the platform in almost 3 years creating content for you guys. Starting to miss it but I know I have to realize that I retired from YouTube and nothing can really change that as I missed the chance to keep it on going no matter what. Honestly the podcast has done extremely well on the Audio ONLY and has been nothing but a huge success.


                I also have to realize the state of YouTube now compare to when I was still on the darn platform it has changed rapidly. Maybe I kept on thinking about it over and over again which got me into those bit of depression moods again which I rather not get into em as they sometimes last a couple of days till I get out of it. I rather try and stay in a happy state of mind but I guess it can be the way my body is from time to time I guess.  Yes we all get the blues here and there but I think partly is the weather is the blame as the weather here has been changing non stop lately and could have a factor too. Either way, I will figure it out why I am feeling this way and I am sure it will pass in time.




Chris

Thursday, January 3, 2019

I Stood Up For Myself At The End of Last Year! (Throwback Thursday Story)

               To be honest, I will not be putting down this store or saying bad things. It was mainly a bad experience not once but twice. It was where I got my laminating and photocopying done and I rather not mention the store as again, I have no hard feelings as I was a regular customer of theirs for many, many years and I was loyal to them for a very long time but sometimes you have to stand up for yourself and that is what I did. What do I mean by this? I asked for some laminating to be cut as I ask them nicely to do prior and it wasn't cut which really got me mad. Unfortunately it ended with me not returning to the store and haven't been back since November of last year but went to another store of theirs in Whitby which is quite the trek from here where the studios are. I'm sure they miss my smiling face and with this being a new year I am putting me walking out behind me and I am willing to go back and forgive the mistake. I really like the staff there as they have been nothing but helpful to me over the course of many years I was a loyal customer. Plus it is a very good primary location for me and easy to access. I just do not know what the staff will say when they actually see me as I walked out on them. Kind of wished I didn't say I wouldn't be back. I guess I am not one of the # 1 customers now as I have been away this long. I just do not know if I would be welcomed back after walking out that is my only concern right now.


               But the way I dealt with it, I am proud of myself for not raising my voice and dealing with things appropriately which probably back then I would of not done that and make an idiot of myself but I am glad at the end of trying to deal with things, I decided to walk away before I say something I regret and get myself 1 kicked out or 2 get banned from the store which would really stink. Walking away was the best thing I could do but I am not sure why I am feeling guilty for walking away? I know in the back on my mind I was doing the right thing by walking away but to try the store again I am not sure if I am ready to take that next step. I want to give the store another shot but I am not ready for this next leap, not yet. I am going to listen to my heart to when it's ready and I better decide soon as I have to get flyers done once the .com back up and running on here. Either way I am proud of myself for standing up for myself.




Chris

Tuesday, May 22, 2018

Having Trouble Re-Adjusting To A Lighter Schedule

                 As it has been 2.5 weeks since Big Brother Canada ended, i have not gotten out of game mode since the season finished...  My mind is still is in game mode where I have to get podcasts out Thursday and Friday's but that's not the case now, I should be in Survivor mode up to the end of the week as the finale is this week and Season 6 is a wrap for my podcast and I am Officially off the clock for actual scheduled Podcasts. I will be starting off season podcasts and there will be plenty of em to come during the off season, one of em with Larry as you probably can hint from my Instagram posts from time to time. 


                Now back to the fact it has been almost 3 weeks now since BB Canada has ended and I am still an appalling mess trying to figure out what the heck to do with my extra time and I think I have found things to do. The ChrisBOnTheWeb.com website which was put on hiatus due to the podcasting schedule getting in the way of things. However I have to try and stay productive with Chris B On The Web and I have. The website has been completed, the first round of BETA Testing is done, waiting on the final round of testing to come. But in the way of podcast content, I am just feeling bored without doing 2 or 3 podcasts a week. I need my podcast fix, you know what I mean? I am just not use to having free time on my hands anymore as TV Show's are now slowly wrapping up, I will have tons of time on my hands and have to use my time wisely!


                Finally I have to be patient during this time of transition and change for me and I think I am doing OK, but I could really do a bit better at the level of transition from 3 podcasts to 2 then to 1 then down to 1 maybe every second week, maybe every week at the most for the off season podcast but transition is something I have to learn to get better at and that is for tomorrow's blog post as this one has inspired another post for tomorrow. 


Have a great day!


Chris

Saturday, February 17, 2018

Where Have I Been Lately?

              I know, I haven't been quite as active on social media and missed out days here on the blog and the reason for it, my mom had surgery so I have been taking care of her and like I have said many times, my family comes first and I have been busy taking care of my mom while she recovers from day surgery. Let me assure you, she's doing well now being 4 days since the surgery was done and recovering quite well.


              Now I am sure you will say, but Chris what about the blog, podcast, well with this week being a very hectic week, the schedule is going to be a bit different from what it usually is but you guys read the blogs and you guys listen to the podcast even if it isn't on the schedule as it says on the website, please do not pay attention to it if I mention it here on the blog, on social or even I think I will change the scheduled time on the website this way it is always up to date and actually I can do that via my desktop calendar so it makes it easy for me to change the schedule and I did that for today's blog post. 



              If you wonder, don't think I don't do anything between helping my parents out since my mom is laid up in her recliner, I have very much been busy behind the scenes, offline working on the off season podcasts & of course working on the 100th episode notes for Everything About Reality TV which mind you now have to get tweaked a bit but that's OK with me, you have to make tweaks to make things better or to improve on it, so been working on that, made a few tweaks to the website this week as well with my mug shot at the top of the website and on the about page as well needed a better picture and think this fits it very well. Also been talking to the individuals who will be appearing or hopefully will be popping by the studio next Thursday, giving them details of the 100th episode. Just got a couple of concerns. So I have been busy behind the scenes, don't think I am not doing anything, because I am quite busy with the busy schedule ahead of me. Between helping my mom and also my dad with dinners, I am very much on a very hectic schedule but still keeping up with everything here in the studio as well, but busy is a good thing, keeps me out of trouble, LOL!


Have a great night!



Chris