Showing posts with label proud. Show all posts
Showing posts with label proud. Show all posts

Thursday, May 19, 2022

Really Am Proud of Myself!

                   I knew I would snap out of this funk I was in, was just the matter of time and I think a lot of it had to do with my sleep schedule. My sleep has been the worst and soon as I took Melatonin it helped but as I write this post, I can only take it for a week then off for a month so I have to try a different method but if I don't sleep, I'll keep myself busy especially in the studio but I have recently been to bed 115 and midnight the last while.  With the lack of sleep I was doubting myself but now I am loving life to it's fullest and I am a lot more happier minus the days I kind of snap at anything but there is the highs and lows in your day to day life and that's OK. Thursday was a lot better then what it was before which is good to have those good days. However the day I was down I just didn't feel that motivated to work on anything, just felt like playing video games and it is important to have those down days as well but I mean I diddly daddlied a ton to a point Super Samurai wasn't getting done. 

                   So that is why Super Samurai was cancelled and rescheduled to June 2nd when LR (Larry) will make his triumphed return to this very studio and I cannot wait till he does! It is very, very exciting. I have to remember the positives: I hang out with Eric weekly, Larry is returning to the studio in June so those are things I can actually look forward to as the weeks go on and we get closer to that goal. Anyways I need to finish off Super Samurai before confirming June 2nd is a go. I haven't even confirmed it with Larry yet neither! Anyways even Eric has been in the studio with me for a few minutes and he even signed the sign in sheet. I know during this pandemic I have doubted my content but things have progressed well during all of this changes in the world and I really have stepped up my game and I am nothing but proud of the hard work I have put into all of this despite some of the mishaps that has happened but that will happen at sometime. Anyways that is today's post, I will talk to you all tomorrow. 


Chris

Monday, January 28, 2019

I Am Proud I Lasted 7.5 Years On YouTube...

               Now that I am not far off of being 3 years since leaving YouTube for good, I decided to bring this up.  Am I proud of lasting 7.5 years on YouTube? Well yes! I am surprised I lasted as long as I did on the platform. I know I was grinding at Videos for 7.5 years and started to get some viewers up to the point of my original channel being detached and still is up there by going to YouTube and finding TheDirector015 which I could just link on my website here technically but all my old videos are there for now until YouTube decides to start taking my videos down for the excessive swearing in the channel... lmao!  Anyways I am still proud how long I lasted on the platform and it was fun, but tiring at the same point, planning out a brand new season on top of vlogging my daily life as well which mind you lasted just beyond 700 days of vlogging which are no longer on the old channel as my second channel is now gone. I mean I worked everyday of the week without breaks, late nights in the studio or office planning, planning and more planning. Now it is not as much planning as you know I am a podcaster which is easier as I take notes watching Reality TV and it is easy to do. 


                 I know when The Entertainment Man Talk Show came out that is when the channel started to hit strides in viewers with 38 to 40 or 50 views an episode which was good, especially the 32nd episode of the series in Season 2 when Eric and I were cursing on and off towards the middle to the end of the episode which mind you now it wouldn't be family friendly content at this point... lol, more then likely it would of been demonetized or removed from the platform at this point. However I am hiding a side project I am regarding that channel which is I am downloading the videos and planning to try and talk to YouTube about it as the account is un-accessible right now and I wanna try and get that channel down at some point. In the end, I am very proud of myself to last as long and it was really a disappointment to see my crew quit one after another and to a point of me making that crucial decision to quit but I am glad to be a part of the platform for those many years I was active as a YouTuber. 





Chris

Thursday, January 3, 2019

I Stood Up For Myself At The End of Last Year! (Throwback Thursday Story)

               To be honest, I will not be putting down this store or saying bad things. It was mainly a bad experience not once but twice. It was where I got my laminating and photocopying done and I rather not mention the store as again, I have no hard feelings as I was a regular customer of theirs for many, many years and I was loyal to them for a very long time but sometimes you have to stand up for yourself and that is what I did. What do I mean by this? I asked for some laminating to be cut as I ask them nicely to do prior and it wasn't cut which really got me mad. Unfortunately it ended with me not returning to the store and haven't been back since November of last year but went to another store of theirs in Whitby which is quite the trek from here where the studios are. I'm sure they miss my smiling face and with this being a new year I am putting me walking out behind me and I am willing to go back and forgive the mistake. I really like the staff there as they have been nothing but helpful to me over the course of many years I was a loyal customer. Plus it is a very good primary location for me and easy to access. I just do not know what the staff will say when they actually see me as I walked out on them. Kind of wished I didn't say I wouldn't be back. I guess I am not one of the # 1 customers now as I have been away this long. I just do not know if I would be welcomed back after walking out that is my only concern right now.


               But the way I dealt with it, I am proud of myself for not raising my voice and dealing with things appropriately which probably back then I would of not done that and make an idiot of myself but I am glad at the end of trying to deal with things, I decided to walk away before I say something I regret and get myself 1 kicked out or 2 get banned from the store which would really stink. Walking away was the best thing I could do but I am not sure why I am feeling guilty for walking away? I know in the back on my mind I was doing the right thing by walking away but to try the store again I am not sure if I am ready to take that next step. I want to give the store another shot but I am not ready for this next leap, not yet. I am going to listen to my heart to when it's ready and I better decide soon as I have to get flyers done once the .com back up and running on here. Either way I am proud of myself for standing up for myself.




Chris