Kept Questioning Am I Sure of My Decision?

            The last few weeks since the end of the 12th Season of Everything About Reality TV if I was sure I really wanted to continue this if that passion for the podcast is still there after 4 years now. Hearing any of the Reality TV Show themes just gives me that strength to continue on and gets me extremely hyped for the next season coming up. Not just the fact this is Season 40 of Survivor but the fact we have a new team member joining us, Jasmine and my goal of bringing a team for this podcast on it has completed what I wanted to accomplished especially after a year of planning this it has come to a full circle and we are close to almost a complete schedule for the podcast. Not only Jasmine will be covering Big Brother Canada but also Big Brother 22 in the States so that is indeed exciting to do and I will not have a repeat of last year where I quit almost at the end of the season. This takes off the pressure off of me and as well helps the podcast grow even more and we are all about growth on this podcast in the end and that is exactly what we are doing with the podcast. So was my decision the right decision? Yes this was the right decision and proud of this decision too.


             Where did this come out of? Well when I was at the open auditions for Big Brother Canada and after I was done that is when I looked at my phone to realize that I had pile of emails with the title "Re: Everything About Reality TV" when I got home from Toronto from a very long day with Eric and I did look in the morning that there was some emails too and I told him it was overwhelming response to the "This is my final season" and made me realize this was a mistake ending it on a high note when I believe I found out that IHeartRadio picked us up out of nowhere so we must have an unique podcast that interested them so that is definitely a bonus for us and it isn't easy to get onto IHeartRadio. So to leave the podcast when we are on big time platforms probably not the right time so that definitely has a big impact on the decision but in the end I am doing this for you guys the fans and you guys come first and since the decision was made everything seems to have come into place weeks later so everything is coming together and with 2 weeks till the start of our 13th Season begins we're excited to what is to come on Feb 5th @ 9 pm EST.




Chris

My Mental Health Is Better Then It Has Been!

              I can be honest with you guys, my mental health has been better then it has been. I mean with friends turning on me this year, my mental health got bad again and I really had to deal with hence one of the reasons I stopped volunteering this year to deal with myself first. My mental health and well-being is the upmost importance to me at this time. I have been working on getting myself a lot happier and it has been honestly an uphill battle especially with dealing with Everything About Reality TV and what I really wanna do if I wanted to continue or just call it quits with it and honestly I think this one of the reasons I have been down and not myself as this podcast has really brought me down and I can say 4 years, 12 seasons, over 240 + Episodes it is the right time to stop the podcast and move on and I am happier now with the right decisions. I have to think what is best for me and makes me the happiest and this is the best decision. Now with friends, like I said I know who my friends are after losing 2 friends I know who my real friends are and happy with the friends I got right now. I am feeling so much better that I have control of my own life and not let anyone get in the way. Eric really opened up my mind in the past few weeks and has made me think so that has helped me.


                I can say I am in a much happier place now and nothing will stop my happiness and one thing I am planning on doing is staying positive and it has helped me as the more positive I am the better things are for me. I have been thinking things a lot more clearly and sometimes I will talk things out in my studio and figure things out. Also I have been thinking about the pros and cons of things and honestly it has helped me. Either way I am a lot happier and able to think clearly, however with my podcast ending, it will really help me clear up but give me a few weeks and the motivation and happiness will be up but right now I have to focus on finishing up the podcast then take the next step. That is another thing, I am able to take baby steps and one step at a time as some things are a step by step but I have to also take one day at a time and that seems to help as well. Either way I am a happy go lucky person and my happiness is what matters as I do not want to go back into a depression ever again, I want to remain happy. I know in the end it is not easy even with someone that has autism since I was young and I just have to somehow deal with it and with the tools I have been given, I need to continue to follow it. 



Chris

I've Made a Crucial Decision With My Podcasts.....

                Tonight was a barn burning decision I hate to make but let me go through what happened tonight. I went on Twitch to do a Brandt Steele which is a website with a simulator of seasons of Reality TV and I wanted to do one Live and people seem to enjoyed it even though some of my regulars were not there but it doesn't matter the fact someone followed me then unfollowed the channel that really ticked me the heck off and that did not sit well with me as I was one pretty upset individual person. I was on a rampage I was slamming doors and I think I fell asleep for an hour and a half so I cooled off. After all this power outage we had here in the house and this includes the studio too in the basement I made the decision to stay Audio ONLY. Why you may ask. Twitch I feel hasn't changed since I left in 2016 and the fact I said I am retired from broadcasting kind of has affected me in some way as I made a promise to myself that I would never broadcast again after the entire fiasco I went back right into total dejavu and I feel totally stupid to have done this move without thinking of the consequences or what happened before. There was no other option as YouTube we all know is dying. 


                I should know both "Everything About Reality TV" & "The CBOTW Show" Podcasts are doing just fine on Audio Only Platforms. In fact they are now on 8 - 10 different platforms now and growing rapidly each and every week and actually the views been up a bit more then usual but I really do not care about the views too much but it totally shocks the heck out of me it's a growing podcast and it will just keep on getting bigger from here on out. So I definitely am on the right track right now and I should continue to be on that right track if I want to continue to be a big success in the podcasts I record for both respective podcasts. You probably are all confused what the heck I even mean but you will see in a moment and I think I should play things safe then trying new things out and I am not afraid to take risks but I think I might of over stepped my boundaries in this going to Twitch. I really feel that Everything About Reality TV did not belong on the platform. 


               So what is the plan from here on out? Well I am planning to stick with Audio ONLY from here on out and continue to grow the podcast and the podcasts on other platforms down the road. Also I plan on growing the subscribers as they are slowly growing each and every week and as you know I have gotten emails that people have listened from certain platforms which is awesome to hear people are able to discover the podcast. I guess it wasn't meant to be on video platforms. If it wasn't for YouTube slowly dying, the adpocolypse and the family friendly content, I would of either stayed on the platform or moved the podcast to it's own channel and did Audio ONLY too but I am not going to take a risk with YouTube at this point as you guys would not get notified or YouTube would take it down. I am happy with my decision and it is the best move for me at this point. 



Chris