I Wanna Make This Clear....

              I wanna make this clear, I am not going to put up with anymore drama. If I have to block, I will. I have endure so much in the last week, I am going to put my foot down now. I have been too lenient over the course of the years and I think I need to do what is best for me in the end to make sure I'm happy and that I am smiling and staying positive. Maybe the saying is right? Change is good! I know we lost a bunch of members on the Facebook group and I am sure we will bounce back, always do as today the fan page is gonzo, done, finished as I will be deleting it since I managed to get it back thanks to the help of Facebook Support helped me out with this. The primary focus will be the group nothing else. I have been so stressed out lately but things are going to be changing for the greater good. I am going to start thinking positive moving forward and not going to let anyone drag me down whatsoever. 

             This is the start of the new Chris and nobody is going to bring me down. Going to continue on with Power Rangers Collab and Entertainment Man Podcast, because I have made some good strides with this. I am constantly working on things to ensure content is going out and I know yesterday there was no extra video. I am sorry about that, I am getting the last piece of the puzzle to the entire thing so it is coming this weekend for am update on the studio itself what things I've changed within the studio. I cannot wait to show you. Anyways, I just wanna make it clear, I am not going to put up with this drama no more, I am all about positivity and being happier moving forward! Until tomorrow have a great rest of your day!

Chris

Thoughts On Lying, Trust and Happiness

              Now this is a subject that I have never really covered this blog before but what do I think of lying? Obviously I am the most truthful, open and honest person you guys can ever meet. I was raised to be a honest person and I admit things pretty quickly and do not hide how I really feel. Now lying, I just do not like and been lied to in the past or people turning their back on me out of nowhere. I have even been helping with making my niece and nephew a very honest person. Honestly lying, I find it as it breaks a point of trust with anyone and I honestly find it tough to keep a friendship afloat as well. Lying just hurts the relationships you are in or even a friendship or even within your own family, they will find it tough to honestly trust you again. It will also make you having to earn their trust back in the process which can take a very long time and I know how it feels. Look at Eric and Larry for example, they both have had our differences in the past with one another but look at us. I can really say that both of them are 2 of my best friends now and we are our friendship is so strong now. I am using them as an example as I said we have had a rocky friendship at times and I will not go into detail but the point I am trying to make, were stronger then we were before.


            You know I have been too trusting and I admit that co-heartily and this year, I think I am going to change things  this year and going to be tougher with that honestly. Last year I had friends turn on me and I felt like an outcast and I think I just feel like I was too trusting and be lied to. I want to be a happy and healthier person. I openly admit my mental health this year needs to change . Honestly change is good and I am good with change now these days. When I was just found out that I have autism, which you guys know I do not talk about very often online but I found change tough but now, it's a piece of cake for me and I am good with change to this day. So this is my thoughts on lying, trust and happiness and I hope you guys enjoyed this topic and if you guys would like any other topics to cover on the blog, please let me know in  the comments below.



Chris

I Am Feeling Alot Better!

               Lately I have been feeling depressed and some of it has to do with some of things that I have had to deal with lately which I am not going into any detail whatsoever about it. However, I have noticed since making changes in my life and getting rid of the negativity around me in my life, I have felt a ton better. Just been a ton more productive in the last month then ever. I have worked so hard on the podcasts and collaboration Podcast. I have actually worked on things and honestly it has kept me busy and not thinking the fact that I am depressed. Honestly I also found going out and about really keeps my mind off of things and fresh air is definitely a good thing. I can use yesterday for example. I went out and about not once but twice I was out and I will explain this. I had to run errands for today, let's put it lightly I had to refill my Presto card so I can travel on the GO Train today on my journey to Toronto with my dad. Also I decided to grab a Ice Cap on the way to the bus and it is nice to reward myself too. Now the second time after I got home and got some work done I took  an hour or so to myself to just take a mental break from things. So being back outside felt really good honestly and was an excuse to get my steps in for the day and I almost doubled my everyday 6k steps. 


               The Point is I feel really good and today is going to make me feel even a lot better as you know I am going to be back out and about today and the fact, I get away from the studio is a good thing and fresh air really clears my head. Moving forward you will see a very focused and happier Chris. Yes some days I will have my moments but don't we all have moments. I believe that is what you call daily life. Life throws us Lemon, as the saying goes? I have noticed recently been taking more time to myself, getting out and about during the days minus weekends most of the time I am home. However when I am home, I take time to even go for 30 - 40 minute walks and getting out and about. I can be honest I am not one for just sitting around, I have to move around. I am a doer not a sitter so to speak. Also I haven't really been running many errands for CBOTW and I need to get out to run those errands. I haven't had a chance with the editing of the most recent podcasts that has or is going up on the website. I am going to continue to go out and about as it is truly helping and anything to get my mental health back to normal.



Chris

My Mental Health Is Better Then It Has Been!

              I can be honest with you guys, my mental health has been better then it has been. I mean with friends turning on me this year, my mental health got bad again and I really had to deal with hence one of the reasons I stopped volunteering this year to deal with myself first. My mental health and well-being is the upmost importance to me at this time. I have been working on getting myself a lot happier and it has been honestly an uphill battle especially with dealing with Everything About Reality TV and what I really wanna do if I wanted to continue or just call it quits with it and honestly I think this one of the reasons I have been down and not myself as this podcast has really brought me down and I can say 4 years, 12 seasons, over 240 + Episodes it is the right time to stop the podcast and move on and I am happier now with the right decisions. I have to think what is best for me and makes me the happiest and this is the best decision. Now with friends, like I said I know who my friends are after losing 2 friends I know who my real friends are and happy with the friends I got right now. I am feeling so much better that I have control of my own life and not let anyone get in the way. Eric really opened up my mind in the past few weeks and has made me think so that has helped me.


                I can say I am in a much happier place now and nothing will stop my happiness and one thing I am planning on doing is staying positive and it has helped me as the more positive I am the better things are for me. I have been thinking things a lot more clearly and sometimes I will talk things out in my studio and figure things out. Also I have been thinking about the pros and cons of things and honestly it has helped me. Either way I am a lot happier and able to think clearly, however with my podcast ending, it will really help me clear up but give me a few weeks and the motivation and happiness will be up but right now I have to focus on finishing up the podcast then take the next step. That is another thing, I am able to take baby steps and one step at a time as some things are a step by step but I have to also take one day at a time and that seems to help as well. Either way I am a happy go lucky person and my happiness is what matters as I do not want to go back into a depression ever again, I want to remain happy. I know in the end it is not easy even with someone that has autism since I was young and I just have to somehow deal with it and with the tools I have been given, I need to continue to follow it. 



Chris

Change.... How Do You Change Yourself As A Person?

                 Change, it is such a hard thing sometimes to deal with. I for one have had to deal with changing things in my life and today I will talk about it in today's blog post and how I have overcome and made these changes in my life not just online wise, but also in my personal life as well, I have worked hard to change my life around. 


                   How did I change my life, for one I stopped being friends with the people who always put me down or got mad at me for no apparent reason, no names mentioned from the start of this month but I wanna surround myself with people with people are positive and have a positive affect in my life, if that makes any sense to you guys. Since the Drama on March 2nd with my former friend of almost 15 years, I am starting to question who my true friends are. I mean I am starting to realize who my true friends are these days and I am happy with the people who are my loyal friends and always there for me and there if I need to talk when I am feeling down, they are truly there for me. 


                     Also I felt like I wanted to change the way I eat, to lose weight and in the last year and a bit you have seen me lose the weight and I am still planning to lose more weight just it will take some time but I am already underway with that process and honestly, I feel great as of right now. Last I checked I am at 220 pounds and staying right there at that number right now but that's for the first Monday of the month to update you and what I plan on doing to continue to lose the weight and a little more better pace. But I mean my self esteem as been a lot better recently, I am feeling happier with losing the weight. I have been smiling a lot more. I think what I am trying to say is I am feeling better about myself with the weight loss. 


                    Finally, friendships being tested and confusion who I can and cannot trust in the past year has been one of the biggest issues I have and I think I finally grasped who I can and cannot trust that has been figured out at this point and I am happy with the group of friends I have right now and nothing can change it. Sometimes you gotta change choose friends who constantly get you upset or mad, sometimes you gotta ask are they really worth the stress? Like I always say friends come and go, but new friends will come along the way! They know who they and I mentioned it above for your information everyone but no names to be mentioned but now I have a clear idea who my real true friends are and I am totally grateful for them in my life! They are truly my friends for life both Facebook and Twitter! 💓


Chris

Photo Is From: Google, A Quote By Carol Burnett 

Laughter Is The Best Medicine!

So I was sitting at my desk when I got home from my appointment at 1 pm EST and was trying to figure out what to write about but I thought I'd like to talk about laughter. You know when you are feeling down and/or depressed personally I will go watch:

1. Three Stooges

2. Laurel and Hardy

3. Family Feud with Steve Harvey

4. Home Improvement

5. Watch clips from a funny movie through the Watchmojo.com's YouTube channel.

Laughter keeps you smiling and it lifts your not so happy mood into a good mood again. Even think about this: you can even put on your most favorite comedy movie and you I ensure you will be laughing the entire movie from start to finish. They also say laughter is very good thing to do and you cannot be serious all the time like someone I knew and use to be my friend. I know some people cannot take a joke and take it seriously. Life is too short to be serious and you need laughter in your life and I think that is one of keys to a healthy and happy life.

Have a great night!

Chris