Thoughts On Lying, Trust and Happiness

              Now this is a subject that I have never really covered this blog before but what do I think of lying? Obviously I am the most truthful, open and honest person you guys can ever meet. I was raised to be a honest person and I admit things pretty quickly and do not hide how I really feel. Now lying, I just do not like and been lied to in the past or people turning their back on me out of nowhere. I have even been helping with making my niece and nephew a very honest person. Honestly lying, I find it as it breaks a point of trust with anyone and I honestly find it tough to keep a friendship afloat as well. Lying just hurts the relationships you are in or even a friendship or even within your own family, they will find it tough to honestly trust you again. It will also make you having to earn their trust back in the process which can take a very long time and I know how it feels. Look at Eric and Larry for example, they both have had our differences in the past with one another but look at us. I can really say that both of them are 2 of my best friends now and we are our friendship is so strong now. I am using them as an example as I said we have had a rocky friendship at times and I will not go into detail but the point I am trying to make, were stronger then we were before.


            You know I have been too trusting and I admit that co-heartily and this year, I think I am going to change things  this year and going to be tougher with that honestly. Last year I had friends turn on me and I felt like an outcast and I think I just feel like I was too trusting and be lied to. I want to be a happy and healthier person. I openly admit my mental health this year needs to change . Honestly change is good and I am good with change now these days. When I was just found out that I have autism, which you guys know I do not talk about very often online but I found change tough but now, it's a piece of cake for me and I am good with change to this day. So this is my thoughts on lying, trust and happiness and I hope you guys enjoyed this topic and if you guys would like any other topics to cover on the blog, please let me know in  the comments below.



Chris

How Do You Trust Someone?

            Trust is hard sometimes, you think you can trust someone but they screw you over so many times, you have to start thinking are they truly your friend at this point? I have been thinking about this for quite sometime with friendships being tested and really makes me think, maybe it is time to move on? I am a very good and dedicated friend but sometimes I feel like I am always the one that calls or texts. Also the fact I haven't hung out with them since January/February really is making me think, maybe they are not truly my friend? Trust is really hard to come by with me and the reason is because of my past of having a team from 2005 - 2017 trust is hard to come by with me these days but if you can have my trust it is a good thing. I am very Leary of trusting people especially someone who keeps on messing up.  


            I can trust people but to a certain point where I have to put my foot down and make a decision if their really my friend or not and trust me the decision is no easy at times but I have to make the right one, not the wrong one. Sometimes the right choice is the right decision and you have to trust your gut instinct. There a few things you should do to trust someone. One is will they always be there for you? Will they wanna hangout with you? Spend time with you? I haven't felt that kind of vibe with one of my friends and unsure what my next move right now. I am kind of playing it by ear right now see what happens in the next 11 hours but I am NOT playing games especially this happening non stop with the bickering that is another piece of advice to not always give em chances after chances, because it will just become a problem and that is what I am going through at the moment and it sucks to go through trust issues with someone. Yes I may be stubborn as a mule from time to time but I am trying to make the right decisions these days not the wrong decisions.


               I hope this helps you guys with trying to trust someone or anyone in general, it isn't easy but you just have to go with your gut feelings and try and listen to what is in your mind and hope it is the right decision.  As an adult it is still difficult but yes I am in my early 30's but don't forget I have autism it can be quite harder to make the decision. However I am trying my best to make the right choices in my life. Anymore question please feel free to ask or send me an email chris@chrisbontheweb.com.


Chris

Been Feeling A Bit Down In The Last 2- 3 Days...

                 I cannot hide the facts that I haven't been myself lately and my moods have been all the over the place, there has been days I didn't want to take my medication for my PDD (Autism) but it's more the fact I feel like I wasted my time giving someone who was earning my trust back with it going out the window and really fast. That has been dragging me down in the last 2 - 3 days, just trying to figure out how to deal with this and to keep up with taking my medication as I know and experience, if I do not take it, then my temper is pretty bad and my friends have seen and do not want to see me miserable and unhappy and I really appreciate that family and friends have been there for me in the past but yes I hid the really facts why some posts weren't constructed well on social media, I just had that I don't really wanna post anything right now, not in the mood. You can tell by my voice for those who are on the Facebook Group live I did yesterday morning on my big adventure yesterday.


                 I am really grateful for great family members and friends who I can count on to cheer me up when I am down in the dumps and recently that has been the case. My friend and former staff member from my previous life as a YouTube is a prime example, he was able to calm me down within a few minutes as I was really fired up and I won't get into specific details of the situation as that is personal but he was able to calm me down and get me to change my mind about going out yesterday and enjoying the day out and trust me I sure did enjoy myself so much I wanna do it again soon! LOL. 


                   Which brings me to today, since i was back late and I am talking late, late like 11 - 11:15 pm EST which was well worth I tell you! But today I slept into today almost till noon but my mom woke me up as she was going out today so it was all good but been moping around the house and the studio today trying to get the Big Brother Canada 6 Cast Preview Podcast notes done and over with but no beef with getting it up tonight but if you tuned into the last podcast, I covered all my bases the other day as I said it would of been today or tomorrow. So today has not been a good day, been struggling all day, just really hope and pray tomorrow is a better day for me and I hope I can perk up and be happy again.

Have a great night!


Chris

Taking Risks!

                  As I am typing this, I realize now that both Justin & Jeff want nothing but the best for Chris B On The Web and I agree, this is why I have decided to let Jeff do The CBOTW Gamers Podcast and there has been talks about it for the last few months but I can definitely guaranteed it will happen in the near future. There is a few things that need to be done to ensure Jeff is ready:

1) Get himself a new Twitter account since i got 2 or 3 of his permanently suspended, he will have to re-establish himself on there.

2) Get a laptop

3) Schedule the day of the first week of the month.

4) Get the necessary training he needs how to do the introduction since it is all Pre-Recorded, nothing currently Live.

So with that I am willing to take this risk, to trust Jeff enough that he can do the podcast once a month and I've known Jeff since at least 2009 and I should be able to trust him around my site and doing content both on the Chris B On The Web Blog and on his podcast. Trust has been a very big issue for me over the last year, first Chance letting me down on a chat, which has put myself in question can I take this big risk especially this early in the rebuild game? I am always one for taking risks and trying things out if they do not work I change things up I decide to not do that set thing whatever it can be. I am always a big risk, I like to take the risks but it sometimes or break Chris B On The Web. However I shouldn't be afraid to make such risks especially if and when opportunity comes a knocking.

Have a great Wednesday!

Chris