My Head has Been Going Crazy The Last Several Days!

          It has been crazy the last few days inside my head, I had a lot of drama to deal with, stress of ChrisBOnTheWeb and drama in the community.... Yeah their has been community drama again from former staff. I'm done giving chances to people. I've been wish I'd have the virus and die from it. People are truly sickening. No wonder I've been unable to focus on content cause of people being jerks for no apparent reason. 

        My head hasn't been in the game recently but I have been trying hard to get things done and I have been, trust me. It has been one thing after another of problems. I probably had to update things on the website too and too much on my plate right at this time. However I am trying and am going to aim to be finished all the notes for the next podcast by Wednesday next week so I can focus. I have had a lot on my plate lately and need to re-focus and get things done at a bit of a faster pace. Anyways that is what is going on with me right now, I will talk to you guys tomorrow.

Chris

Everything About Reality TV Podcast Will Be 3 Episodes Short of 250!

               Originally was going to do a Throwback Thursday but I went against the idea as I feel like it was too soon to actually do this as I was only involved with PRCB for nearly 3 months and I wanna wait till I hit the 1 year mark at least. Anyways I was doing the math yesterday and I realize that I am going to be 3 episodes short of 250 and I feel like it's all my fault honestly. What do I mean? If I ended up continuing on with Big Brother 21, I more then likely would of had the 250 so easily, probably end up but a little over 250 by the end of the year. However that wasn't the case this time around, I ended up stopping those recaps towards the end of the season which I lost 2 subs because of it but hope I end up gaining that back eventually. There was a lot of flaws and issues I had this summer which has really made me think about the future of the podcast and that is one of the reasons why we will be 3 short but if it wasn't for what I did screwing things up like I have been then probably would of gotten to that 250 right on. I really messed up my numbers and hurting the podcast and honestly I am starting to question myself with this podcast to how much longer it will last if I continue with the route the podcast is going or I end up walking away and doing other projects that I have going on now.  Now I know I signed a silly contract agreeing I would continue on till Fall 2020 then it would be obviously up for renewal if I want to continue and I know that is like an guaranteed additional year for the podcast  but we will definitely will have to wait and see what the plan is for 2020 - 2021 when the time is right. I need to start focusing on fixing whatever the issues are and I know there are a few that occurred during the summer and they are:

1)  Staying on track and honestly I haven't been staying on track but honestly it has become better this season then the last season to be honest and things are starting to look up for the podcast but I did lose subscribers because of this and not staying on a schedule. 

2) Fixing the quality of the microphone which is already starting to sound a ton better then it has been in the last while. I am working on and it has indeed has gotten a ton better then it has been and I wanna remain professional with the podcasts I am involved with.

3) Not making the mistake to returning to YouTube was another mistake I made and you know the song and dance to that honestly. That wasted a ton of my time too as well hence the copyright claim crap I should of just continued on with Audio ONLY which has been blowing up like crazy in numbers.


              So there is tons of reasons why we ran 3 episodes short but do not worry come January 2020 I will be doing some off season podcasts so that will be the time to catch up on the numbers to ensure we will be ready for the winter season with Survivor 40, Big Brother Canada and Amazing Race which we do not know when that is coming out so it is on the wait list for now and we will see what is going to happen. 



Chris

Been Feeling A Bit Down In The Last 2- 3 Days...

                 I cannot hide the facts that I haven't been myself lately and my moods have been all the over the place, there has been days I didn't want to take my medication for my PDD (Autism) but it's more the fact I feel like I wasted my time giving someone who was earning my trust back with it going out the window and really fast. That has been dragging me down in the last 2 - 3 days, just trying to figure out how to deal with this and to keep up with taking my medication as I know and experience, if I do not take it, then my temper is pretty bad and my friends have seen and do not want to see me miserable and unhappy and I really appreciate that family and friends have been there for me in the past but yes I hid the really facts why some posts weren't constructed well on social media, I just had that I don't really wanna post anything right now, not in the mood. You can tell by my voice for those who are on the Facebook Group live I did yesterday morning on my big adventure yesterday.


                 I am really grateful for great family members and friends who I can count on to cheer me up when I am down in the dumps and recently that has been the case. My friend and former staff member from my previous life as a YouTube is a prime example, he was able to calm me down within a few minutes as I was really fired up and I won't get into specific details of the situation as that is personal but he was able to calm me down and get me to change my mind about going out yesterday and enjoying the day out and trust me I sure did enjoy myself so much I wanna do it again soon! LOL. 


                   Which brings me to today, since i was back late and I am talking late, late like 11 - 11:15 pm EST which was well worth I tell you! But today I slept into today almost till noon but my mom woke me up as she was going out today so it was all good but been moping around the house and the studio today trying to get the Big Brother Canada 6 Cast Preview Podcast notes done and over with but no beef with getting it up tonight but if you tuned into the last podcast, I covered all my bases the other day as I said it would of been today or tomorrow. So today has not been a good day, been struggling all day, just really hope and pray tomorrow is a better day for me and I hope I can perk up and be happy again.

Have a great night!


Chris