Podcasts May Be Stressful but worth the long hours!

               Podcasting may be a lot of work from pre-production to production to post production it is a ton of work. However there is the technical side of the podcasting especially with a certain program named Skype that ChrisBOnTheWeb Media isn't using as a tool for our shows anymore. I will talk further on that on next Wednesday's episode for you guys on the future of guests and interviews with the podcast. Tech issues can happen and it happened on that one day I was suppose to be on a podcast and patience is a virtue when it comes to that especially. 

                So podcasting can be and is very stressful at times and yesterday proved it cause Skype is dead to me, I'm done with it and yes I am showing my frustration with the platform and app. So where am I going with this post? Podcasting is a ton of work both behind the scenes and on the air. Plus updating the software with the proper graphics etc. Then editing the audio for release on Audio Only. However it is worth the long, long hours and I've become accustomed to the long hours and it takes a lot of dedication and time too. I am proud of both podcasts and how far we've gone with the podcast. That is the blog for today, I will talk to you on Monday as Kels is taking over the blog tomorrow so have a great weekend, talk Monday!

Chris

Sometimes I Take On Too Much!

               I know there is a lot of moving parts with ChrisBOnTheWeb, from these blogs to podcasts to being active in the server which I have been quiet on there on and off from time to time. This is why I want to wrap up Power Rangers Collab and merge it with the other one in case of future seasons that comes out. But with Power Rangers Collab being merged with the other podcast The CBOTW Show and down to two shows currently up and running, this means things are going to be great and better to be honest! 

              I need to remember to take time to myself but not too much time when it comes to creating content, I need to get it done still on a timely basis. Also have to remember that I cannot take on too much all at once and this is why I have a list and a bit of a schedule to follow but I cannot take on too much at once and I have a bad habit of doing that quite often so it isn't good whatsoever. Anyways that is the post for today I will talk to you all tomorrow for the end of the week updates, so enjoy the rest of your day as I will by the time you read this Larry and I have been finished with the 30th Anniversary Special for Power Rangers Forever and Always. 

Chris

Dealing With Stress

             Recently I have struggled with depression and stress and part of the depression is the stress I am going through with ChrisBOnTheWeb. I try to get the collab done in time for the 3rd but yet to really bury myself into the notes. I just did not have the time, was always busy with the interviews and one of the reasons I took some time off as I felt like I wasn't paying attention enough to the collab. Other reason was I needed some time to do more from the heart episodes but don't worry, I will be back to those by November 6th with scheduling them. I will be by then finished with the collab. I think it is more that I am not using very good time management skills right now and that is something I need to work on is my time management skills to ensure things do get done even if I was to do half on one the other half on another. 

            I have been struggling and been more in my moods lately and hasn't let up. Even on my meds for Autism it doesn't seem to have helped with my moods. I at times I end up just not functioning fully where I just wanna play video games and not work and that hasn't helped whatsoever with getting work. Been trying to motivate myself so I can get the work done and Saturday and Sunday showed it. Saturday I really tried up to late in the day I started to record and get things out. Sunday I charged hard at it and got 2 of the 3 podcasts done. Somewhere inside me  I really was trying my hardest to not let the stress and mental health get in my way. I have been fighting this for a while but not giving up. I will get all this content done and I will catch up. I know I can, just need to give some positive reinforcement with myself and I will get myself caught up cause I know I can do it. Anyways that is the post for today and I will talk to you all tomorrow.

Chris

The Past 2 Weeks With ChrisBOnTheWeb Has Been Tough

                 I have a very rough last 2 weeks with ChrisBOnTheWeb where I've just given up on it. Alas I am still around and still creating regardless how I feel. I know I have felt like I've just lost the will to continue on with this website but still trecking along with content. This week got a bunch of interviews and regular podcasts written notes so I have em ready to go followed by working on Power Rangers Collab which I am currently working on Super Samurai at the moment and hopefully get it sent out to Larry a week tomorrow so he has em so we can record on last podcast via Skype before his return to the studio in June. Anyways off topic as usual but that is what I have been up to since and just trying to catch up especially on the collaboration as time is a ticking and I wanna stay on schedule so we will be ready for Dino Charge this fall. 

                 Not letting my mental health, depression or anyone drag me down all together. I started to smile back on Monday and been in a better mood. I've let certain people drag me right down to a point I've wanted out of ChrisBOnTheWeb. I've wanted out of CBOTW for 2 years now but seem to not have the courage to give up. To be quite honest, I am glad I have never quit. What would I have done with my extra time when it came to my day to day. What would I have done with the money that I have earned as I wouldnt get the full amount as I didn't hit the threshold of 100 bucks. Either way I am constantly fighting through all the issues and started to smile more and get more work done. Anyways that is the post for today, I will talk to you guys tomorrow for the final blog of the week which is the end of the week updates.

Chris

Let's Talk Stress

              I admit the stress levels have been up the past month now and I haven't been able to deal with stress. Last week was a big example of me not being able to handle it as you know I was restricted from Facebook twice which I didn't do anything nor broke any rules nor Larry, Chloe or Amy wouldn't report me so someone decided to false report me and get me in trouble with the platform. I give too many chances to be honest to certain people and honestly I need to stop giving so many chances that is my problem. I should implement with CBOTW a 3 strike system, once your on strike 3 your gone.  I've been named called, accused and screwed over for podcasts. It really has  affected me and there is a system to how you can get your podcast into my network. Right now it's just friends I am allowing cause of the events in the last 2 years. 

              This is me starting in a fresh start. Once I block, I do not unblock. Not going to let anyone bring ChrisBOnTheWeb down this year. This website has done extremely well and has shown a lot of promise and progress. Especially with Amy's podcast now back on video once again we keep on growing this thing from here on out. I need to learn to deal with my stress levels and know my limit for working on things and taking that break when I need to take a break from things for an hour or so. I stress very easily and last Monday was a proof of it. I know with the Facebook drama I didn't deal with it well as In was in one of my moods the rest of the afternoon. When I got home a week ago, I ate dinner then was in bed afterwards and not up till nearly 3 am the next morning. Even the next morning I was emotionally and physically tired from the previous day and just did my own thing during the day. Wasn't upstairs much during the day and stayed down in my studio most of the day. Anyways that is my post, I will talk to you all tomorrow have a great rest of your day!

Chris

How Am I Handling My Mental Health?

            Today I wanna focus on how I am dealing with it. Some days are are good where I am fully functioning and other days not so much such as Saturday into Sunday as I got devasting news with a former site admin has passed away on top of the other sad news as well, it's just overwhelming for me and we all mourn differently and one of the reasons why I sometimes am quiet. I'm not bottling it in, just the way I am dealing with all of this really. I know and I hear this from my team every single day that my mental health comes first and I know that but if I take time for myself then I fall behind schedule. I should take time at least an hour or two if I am feeling down and I did on the weekend. An unhappy Chris is a unmotivated person like I have been recently. Sometimes I just do not wanna take my medication for my Autism and that is no excuse to skip it because I am totally not myself.

            I need to stay on the medication or I will not be able to focus and get the job done. I know I have a website to go on or phone numbers to call but I just do not feel like talking to anyone about what's going on but might have to force myself to make the call or send the text out. I need to be focused to get things out at a timely fashion. Yes work is a priority and I enjoy Executive Producing and Hosting Podcasts but I have to remember I as a person comes first. It is not easy to stay positive and in the last year, been working hard to becoming a more positive person and be happier. Last week, Thursday afternoon I was happy because I was getting vaccinated and that put a smile so I am starting to smile but it's one thing and one day at a time. Anyways that is what I have to say and I promise to work on getting better and thank you from th bottom of my heart to those who have checked in on me. I will see you all in my next post tomorrow.

Chris

I Am On A Sabbatical As Owner of ChrisBOnTheWeb

                  As the title says I am taking a break or Sabbatical from running the day to day Operations which now now has been handed over to Charlotte for the day to day operations of the website and team. Couple of reasons for that is 1) I'm stressed 24-7 and need to try and now destress and I am going to if crap stops happening over this way. 2) My grandma has been not well since getting the vaccine for this virus as Jasmine would say, the Backstreet Reunion Tour (LOL.) 3) Now that Entertainment Man Podcast is gone, I have been depressed and dealing with that too. 4) Getting over some drama and always seems to be more added to the list to be honest. 5) The amount of hate, disrespect and being blocked for no apparent reason. Those are my reasons behind why I have taken myself away from CBOTW and why I am not as involved with the team at this time. I know I have been accused of so many different things recently which is beyond what I can believe and it is hard honestly to take this crap from people.

                   However I will still be active on the blog Tuesdays - Fridays on our normal blogging days, I'll be active on Twitter and Instagram posting up stuff but as for the decisions I will not be involved with for the time being while I deal with and get my mental health better then it has been with recently which is the upmost importance to me. Also the Podcasts you will hear my voice but I need to be upfront and honest with all that is happening with my Grandma not doing well, Jasmine will be taking over this week at the most, Thursday at least, I may pop back on Saturday, we'll see how that is goes but more then likely Jasmine will do both this week while I deal with all this and I know they will be happy to take over as long as I need and this is why I have an amazing team, we back each other up either way. When will I return back to ChrisBOnTheWeb? I couldn't honestly tell you guys at this point, now is definitely not the time to make that decision at this moment. I am taking my time with the decision to return and I hope it's soon to be honest and I may wait till my Facebook Ban is over but we will. I just wanted to be more open why I am taking time away and not hide the real truth behind why I haven't said anything and honest reason is I had posts already scheduled for last week and why I have decided to push it to today.

Chris

I Cannot Be Careless With Forgetting To Blog.....

             I know I am suppose to blog on a daily basis but I was once again very careless with not blogging. Yes I did it again! I just do not know why I didn't think of this last night when I was on very late last night that I should of done a post and to be honest, I didn't really have anything planned. The Schedule this week on the whiteboard in the studio consisted of topics written on there Monday and yesterday and today's and tomorrow's blanked completely with no real topic and my weight loss well that's fluctuated so much I just do not think I can really give you guys an update on that right now. Maybe next week I can give you guys a definite update on my weight loss but with my weight either going up and down or staying put as I have tried so hard to get it below 230 before end of this week but that may not be happening at this point but the update is all up in the air for this week. Only 2 days away from that and we will see what I wanna do. 

            I can say that this week is totally up in the air right now. This is a very random week with posts at this point. I am just unable to keep up with it really, with 3 podcasts on the go trying to run  the maybe Lounge or have Charlotte do that to blogging and watching the show, I do not have enough hours in a damn day to keep up with everything honestly. So much going on but I have an announcement that I am going to be discussing this with my co-host next week that we will put off any recording till June and into July and it will be just prep work at this point. As you know today I was suppose to record this weekend's Entertainment Man Podcast but I have to do that tomorrow when I get up and get editing it as I am podcasting a ton during the weekend but if I am up tonight late I may take a whack at recording today. This is my boring post for today and sorry it wasn't anymore exciting then you expected but tomorrow Charlotte is going to be taking over the blog tomorrow as there is something she wants to talk to you about with the return of our lounge, rules etc. I will talk to you all Friday!

Chris

This Is Why Chris Is Away From Blogging This Week....

               There is a lot of reasons why Chris is away from blogging this week and today's post I will explain it all. It has nothing to do with you guys, just stress and mental health and we really do not wanna see him like this.

- Sleep- First thing is work is not a problem, he gets a ton done per day but it is hard with his sleep being out of sync and him sleeping in the evenings and up all night and day his sleep is pretty well out of wack right now. If he's not working he's asleep in bed and not working on content.

- Mental Health-- He has been struggling with this entire Pandemic all together and it has been a very big part of this entire issue. What I heard he was entirely fine Pre-COVID-19 but now not so much and it has affected his work performance in the recent week. He is trying to keep in good spirits but some days are better then others.

-  Workload--  He has made some progress with content and continue to work on it despite not sleeping but this week he wants to focus on the content and get things rolling for content is another great reason why he's not going to be around this week.

                  I know you are going to ask about the Discord? He may pop in the Discord from time to time and I know he sees all your wonderful positive comments and feedback in the Discord even if he is working away on content. He will be just fine, this Pandemic has thrown his sleep and mental health and he really hopes that this pandemic ends soon as it's affected him greatly. You will see him on social media, Discord throughout the days but as blog he's off the blog for the time being but more then likely he'll be back next Monday with new posts hopefully.

Matt, CBOTW Admin/Management Team

Dealing With Drama & Stressing Over It

               There is a lot I thought about in the last day and that is with everything that has happened in the last year with drama which for example, I have been called names made me realize it is not worth to stoop to their level to do it back. If someone calls you names or cause problems it is not really worth to stoop their level and do it back. It is not worth the extra stress and honestly I just do not worry about it and move on with what I am doing. There is other things in the world that you need you to worry about. Life is too short to deal with petty drama and stooping to others level. You have to show you are the more mature person as they wanna get an reaction out of you and if you retaliate then it is not a good thing to be honest. Honestly I have started to show a different side of myself recently. Point I just do not care and also that I have given to many chances and I have learned to start putting my foot down. I mean I need to stop giving so many chances to those who have done me wrong. Trust me I am a completely different person then I was a year or so ago.

                The last year has been a lot of ups and downs and moving forward I am not going to be as easy going. Just will not put up with crap or drama moving forward and honestly I feel like I have been too easy going at times over my life time in the last 35 years that I have been in this world called Life. I know I can be serious at times and I have to be when it comes down to something that I am very passionate about like blogging and podcasting.  Either way I don't play around and there is a certain tolerance I have when it comes to this and honestly. Anyways that is my post for today and hope you have a wonderful rest of your day and I will talk to you guys tomorrow.

Chris

Chris Is On A Partial Leave of Absence...

           Well, you trolls won... You drove poor Chris to insanity and stress. He pours his time and effort into content, to continuing to grow this website, give him a darn break! He works countless hours without a break whatsoever, he works day in and day out and you tell him to get better content when he is working hard. It has been nothing but trolls and insults and rudeness towards him and the entire team. We lost one staff cause of ex staff being rude... It's driven him to a mental breakdown. I'm sorry but I have to vent because enough is enough with all of this. So the news I have is that Chris has decided with my help and suggestions to take a leave of absence from the administration side of things. However he will not be steering away from podcasts notes, Entertainment Man Podcast & Power Rangers Collaboration Podcast and he will tweet updates from time to time when he's not busy to say hi or any updates on the podcast planning but I will also be tweeting and posting to social media as well. 

            Chris has been unhappy for nearly 2 months now and I saw this coming even before I took over the role of Community Manager and been around the ChrisBOnTheWeb Socials and the website. I may be taking on a bigger role within the team as Administrator but I will also be still pertaining the Community Manager role as normally. I am just taking on a second role while boss man is away getting better and dealing with his depression. Honestly I can say this, Chris has thought about giving me full Ownership and stepping down as Owner of the website and group but glad he has decided to do this and I've been trying to get him to take time away from the admin side of things to focus on the project aspect. Do not worry I was one of the 2 between myself and Mark who helped and built the menu bar and social media buttons on the website so I do have experience in coding and I previously helped him with the Original ChrisBOnTheWeb.com on that other provider that Chris doesn't really like... Finally you will be seeing more posts from me unless Chris decides to pop on to say hi and do a post. Do not worry, he is going to be back and when is the question as I cannot really tell you guys at this point when he is planning to start doing his normal everyday duties. Let's just hope he doesn't have to take another leave again cause of you trolls. Let me give you a warning, you once insult us or disrespect us, you will be banned and not allowed back. We have no room for trolls as wanna keep things flowing well and have been flowing well with new programming coming soon to the website. I will address that this week at some point. 

Jim, CBOTW Admin/Community Manager

Procrastinating Is Getting Better

             I can say this I am getting better at the procrastinating but still am having issues with the whole thing currently. It will indeed take me a while to get better at it. Recently I was procrastinating with the entire Big Brother 21 and I know the season is over now with it being 2 - 3 days later but I mean it was the worse experience of procrastination hence the reason why you guys saw it go to the way side very quickly but I made the promise to you guys it'll be back and I am a man to my word and will promise it. Sometimes it is too much to weave in at once and that could be the issue with me getting things out on time but recently things are looking are looking better as I said. I will explain myself on that. This week I have shown a lot more interest in Everything About Reality TV and I actually got to be on track this week for once and my goal is not procrastinate and get the podcasts out right on track for the entire season to see if I can indeed reach this goal as next year is going to be big for the podcast as you know it will be our 5th year ON-Air. Other then that I am still having some issues with getting posts out in the morning as my sleep schedule I am either in bed early or I'm up late but there is no excuse for me to fall behind on those. That is the one problems I am currently enduring at the moment but I can say it is starting to get better slowly but surely.


              I am getting a ton better but still got a bunch of work to do with the procrastinating. One things I have found myself doing is following a schedule I have set. So I normally have it all set up on the white board from posts for the daily blogs which I am shocked it has lasted this long 700 + blogs on almost a regular basis and I am still writing posts even to this day and I think this will never end to be honest as I enjoy writing on a daily basis and usually I am very, very good with actually posting up something everyday which is why today's post is being doubled up so you get a bonus post. Just to let you guys know the bonus post is out at 11 am EST followed by a 2 hr window for the main one. So in conclusion of this I think it is getting better but I still struggle from time to time on this issue but I think we all do at times so I am not the only one with procrastinating as we all procrastinate from time to time but I want to eventually cut it out entirely and have a very smooth flow of things. Sometimes I just to need to just go with the flow at times but I will get it eventually. 




Chris

Mental Health Has Not Been So Great Lately....

          I have to say today's post wasn't easy to come up with and I say starting at the blank canvas of the blog on the back side of the website trying to come up with what to write and it finally came to me I want to talk about my Mental Health recently. First of all I was going to do a food review but then I ate before leaving to go out to Pickering for the day so that food review was thrown out the window but will happen again in the very nearby future indeed next time we are out there, I promise to do that for sure! Now my mental health hasn't been great and it started at the end of July into early with a situation which I will not name any names but I asked them to leave a group I run and come back as I did something stupid and they did only half so I think that is when the stress started was from there. Then being blocked for no reason but really I do not care at this point what they do, I won't say anything to them from here on out and that is honestly my choice I can only make. Also I lost friends over the weekend which I did something I regret doing now and that is I scratched my hand open and haven't done that in months now and honestly I do not want to be doing this to myself ever again. I need to work on that and I am going to. I have been self talking myself out of it but for the most part it has worked but I need to add one more thing to ensure it doesn't happen again. Now I was suppose to volunteer at a Kar Show Friday but I started to feel overwhelmed and I made the decision to focus on my mental health right now.


              Today is a better day so far but every couple of days I seem to still have those moments and I just do not know why it's happening. Maybe I am just am just overwhelmed right now and I am letting it just get to me perhaps. I shouldn't but least I am now recognizing what is going on with me in my life and it has indeed helped me in the long run but still work to be done honestly. However the fact I am able to know what is going on with me is a big plus. I honestly think that there is too much going on for me right now from keeping up with blog posts, podcasts and some other stuff that involves this very website that has now been put up on hold for right now. I will be talking about it this evening on the blog here so do not worry but right now I have to figure things right now and it is all about me right now and focusing on myself which is now a priority right now.



Chris

Knowing When To Stop or Slow Down....

            I haven't done one of these advice posts in a while. Sometimes you need know when to stop and the example I have is that I have not stopped in 7 months now up to the point of me just feeling burnt out but not clue how on earth I manage to keep on going or manage to continue. The point is sometimes you need to take a step back and say stop. You need a break from things and that is my flaw is that I always have to be doing something that is my issue honestly. But sometimes you just gotta say no, that's enough, take a break from whatever you are doing, whether you are a YouTuber, Podcaster or Blogger at some point you sure as heck do need a mental break from things and just sit back and relax and just have time to yourself but with me I just refused to do that and wait till the last minute on things no wonder I am stressed the heck out 24-7. It seems that I end up procrastinating till the last second but the problem is I pile it on too much at a time so that doesn't help whatsoever and it is my fault entirely to not stopping. This can be a great example to you guys to sometimes stop and rest you're mind which you need from time to time. I mean you cannot go without a break it is just not healthy whatsoever.


            Now sometimes you need to just slow down and not over do it in a day. I do recommend to do a schedule this way you guys know what the heck you are doing each and everyday and to limit what you do but I understand you gotta get things done but I mean for example for me if it is a day for the podcast, then that is my main focus for the day. Recently been focusing on two different things at once recently tho with both this blog and getting the podcasts out before I go away on holidays so it was understandable while I was multi tasking but sometimes you just gotta slow down and take your time and actually take time to yourself as well. Either way I hope this sort of helps you if you feel stressed out and just do not know what to do is to slow down or just say stop if it is non work related and you will feel much better and I feel a ton better since getting back from holidays with my parents and raring to go once again. Final note is that starting tomorrow, I will be writing blog posts on the day of the post going up. Everything is going back to normal and a special announcement post tomorrow as well. 



Chris

We Need To Talk.... Serious Talk Right Now!

               Right now things are not going too well for me, stressed out to the max thinking I am not going to be able to handle the transition and normally it's not too bad but with the stress of trying to figure things out, it hasn't been easy transition plus trying to schedule around my vacation time in July when I am out in Boston and Maine for a holiday to see the East Coast in the USA. Anyways I was starting to get those negative thoughts in my head and I have been trying to keep a level head on things with positivity but recently reverted back to the negative Nelly and it isn't me to be this way normally. Also I have been feeling like I have burnt myself out to a point I am starting to question myself as a podcaster and if I really need a break from things. However the issue that I am having is the fact I already agreed to continue on with the podcast during the summer months ago so it was really out of my hands honestly. I cannot do anything about it, when I say something I stick to my word on things and that is the kind of person I am, I like to keep my promises and so what if I am a little burnt out right now, not like I have gotten a bit more of energy or a second wind on things when I have started to feel this way and honestly I have been only podcasting for a few weeks with a once a once a week schedule.


                 So it is not easy last while honestly as I have been struggling to transition seasons. Now what I could of done was just continued on with the 10th season but yet my folder that holds up all the notes is pretty full up now and time to transition to another folder as this one has officially filled up as the season wraps, the folder fills up very quickly. Maybe a lot of this has to stem with the fact that today marks me leaving YouTube for good and being retired from the platform, maybe that is what is on my mind the past week as I was and have been thinking about it. It has been a long 3 years and I have done such an amazing job with rebuilding the website and the CBOTW brand and there is nothing wrong with a break and it has been very easy few weeks however things have really sped up and yes I realize I took a blog break yesterday as I wasn't thinking too clearly honestly. I started to think clearly and I thought about you guys honestly. I wanna say thank you for the continuous love and support, through the thick and thin of things, I always manage to get myself out of issues I am having with Chris B On The Web and I do this for you guys, not just for myself but for you guys as well.




Chris

So Overwhelmed Right Now!

            Right now my mind is exploding with feeling overwhelmed with 2 Preview podcasts on the go plus this weeks regular episode. I just need to stay focused as Sunday is the first release of the preview podcasts. Yes I realized it is overlapping but you will see what I mean when we transition into the 11th season.  My worry is getting the recording done then taking too long to edit it and export the file so it can go up. That is my fear, I will procrastinate but with me having a list on my desktop, that will definitely help me. I think I am just feeling fear I will let you guys and have I ever let you guys down, well I did before but that was before and now I am getting better on sticking to a schedule and it seems to be getting better as things progress which is a good thing. I need to stop doubting myself and start to believe in myself more which I keep putting myself down which I honestly need to stop doubting and putting myself down. I think my confidence has been shook up. Maybe I am just letting the stress get to the better of me and I thought I am getting better handling my stress and it feels like I have gone back to my old ways. I should just take it one day at a time at this point and probably today I will get a chance to record the Amazing Race Canada or by the time you guys read this as I wrote this in the wee early morning as I always do everyday minus tomorrow's is already written and scheduled to go up due to me away out of town for the day with Larry.


              Either way I know I can do this if I put my mind to it. I think sometimes I do overthink things and I should just focus on one thing at a time and use my priority list to help me through everything.  My priority should be Big Brother 21 but it is still early in the week and I have till Saturday night to finish so there is plenty of time for me to get things done so I shouldn't really worry about it honestly. Today I know I will have one of the 2 podcasts out and ready to go for next week then the next one will be the Big Brother 21. So I got plenty of time before Sunday and even if I get the editing done on Sunday afternoon then that is fine but I should be recording on Friday at the most so I should be good. Anyways the schedule is Sunday, June 23rd, 2019- Big Brother 21 Preview Podcast @ 9 pm EST and Wednesday, June 26th, 2019- Amazing Race Canada 7 Preview Podcast also @ 9 pm EST. So the schedule will be pretty simple so there should be no issues with me keeping with the workload whatsoever.



Chris

The Past Week Has Been Nothing But Mass Chaos For Me!

                 This week has been nothing but mass chaos for me with being behind schedule again and work piled up on me is making me think is this additional podcast worth it? Well yes I wanted to do it but I was hoping by May 22nd it would of stuck to that schedule but it is what it is. Plus I have had appointments and meetings all week and no time to edit the podcast and have it up on time. But Thursday I was only a tad bit late which isn't bad at all. However, I am excited for this week as it is going to be a busy, busy week for me with Easter coming up and dealing with the podcasts but don't forget I have done two podcasts in a day once when I covered Music City so I should be able to handle the stress levels of that. But I think this week, I worried a lot about the upcoming week as Easter is nearby and I will be busy with the family so what I am doing is pre-planning my days ahead of time before I get into this very busy week. 


                   It is always with me planning, planning, planning and executing this plan. I haven't stopped since January rolled in since Music City as I have been busy with that podcast, but Celebrity Big Brother, Survivor, Big Brother Canada and finally Amazing Race, I have just gone on non stop. I don't think I will end up sleeping tonight at all or not very much due to the stress and worries with the final weeks of 4 episodes a week, then moving down to 2 then down to 1 podcast a week finally. I just want a break from it all honestly. I have also been stressing that CBS has yet said an official renewal of Big Brother US 21 that has been driving me up the wall waiting and waiting for official news even though reliable Big Brother sources say it will be back this summer but yet their is no official word from CBS themselves. 


                   At this point all I can say is Amazing Race Canada 6 is the only one that I am covering and if they decide at the last second to bring it back this summer, more then likely I may end up taking the summer off from Big Brother 21 as this is driving me absolutely insane honestly. I know you guys the fans are starting to lose patience but it is CBS for you. I think I have made my decision for the 11th season of Everything About Reality TV and will be making the announcement soon enough, hopefully by mid June/Late June at the most. I am beyond frustrated, mentally exhausted and tired and need a break from it and once Amazing Race completes, I hope I have a week or so off before starting up the next season. I can tell you this, I have already made the decision for no many or no off season podcasts, however, that could change but I usually got my mind made up to what I wanna do with CBOTW. 



Chris

Feels Like 2016 All Over Again....

           Right now I am not thinking straight right now.... As you know with the recent additions to the podcast I think I am just overwhelmed and not myself and I am so confused with things and people are literally worried about me right now. Honestly my mental state or mental health isn't all there right now. I need to learn to just deal with it and work with the schedule and I always record in the mornings so I should continue on with it honestly. Honestly this is only for a few weeks then I am down to 2 per weeks which is half of what the schedule is going to be starting next week so what the heck am I honestly complaining about. It's only a few freakin weeks honestly which isn't much and the final weeks of both Big Brother Canada & Survivor Edge of Extinction will go quite quickly. I just gotta work hard and make sure I am going to have it ready for the actual release at the new times that I have mentioned. 


              What did I mean it feels like 2016.... I just feel with everything going on right now it feels like how The Entertainment Man Talk Show ended in the final months of it's existence and I just do not want Everything About Reality TV ending in the same way that ended and if it ended anytime soon, it would definitely be on a good high note as of right now I am currently standing at 191 Episodes, 192 today as I recorded yet again today for the Preview of Amazing Race 31 which starts a week today which should be exciting honestly I should show the excitement levels. If I think of it, if it ends start of June to Mid June at the most which I do not know when the finale will be at this moment but I am sure I will have a few weeks off from this podcast and I think I will be not doing many off season podcasts, I am going to take the break I need without worrying about it. 


                 Honestly I do not want it to end up like almost 3 years ago as I was in a very dark place and honestly it felt like that tonight as I felt the control I had slipping through my fingers and I was going back into my old ways. I don't need to go back that way cause it wasn't a pretty face to see honestly and this all started back two days ago at the mall when visiting with Eric. I am just not with it and I am in need a mental break from doing this podcast which when I was on YouTube before this begun, I didn't have that break and it feels like that even now. When I was not in the right frame of mind which I did really stupid things to myself and it's no lies and honestly I do not wanna go back into that depression and corner like I was in and I assure you this is not going to happen again. I am just currently in a funk and need to get out of it and fast.



Chris

Been Having Doubts Recently....

         I have been having doubts lately with Chris B On The Web, how long it will last, how long will Everything About Reality TV Podcast will last but right now Chris B On he Web is very stable at the moment and honestly I shouldn’t have to worry about it’s future as things are going quite well for me and proud of every step the podcast and the website has made and the success that has come with it as well. Nothing has stopped me from being a success and in the last few days I’ve gained two new listeners of the podcast which can be found on the podcasts page. How did I manage to gain listeners? Well word of mouth technically and always a great way to promote yourself which I just came up with a brand new blog post down the road probably on the weekend when. New set of blog posts are out as I am still planning it out still but almost there. I sometimes just feel this way and in time it passes through and it is out of sight out of mind. I am only human and titled to having my moments from time to time and recently have had those moments a lot more recently then ever and probably is because zig got a lot in my mind right now which I have no time let my mind wander technically but least I am keeping myself busy.


                  Also the fact I have been trying to produce a new weekly podcast to help with the quieter seasons of Everything About Reality TV Podcast which I will be talking about next week what it will be like and what it is going to be about in one of my daily blog posts and I will give you all the deets (details) about it soon. It gives me a couple of extra days to prepare what is it truly going to be about and trust me it will be another great podcast and more active then The CBOTW Show ever was as I very unhappy with the way it turned out being not as active as I really wanted it to be active but it wasn’t and the reason why I decided to hang it up with that podcast was because of the inactivity of me not posting up episodes so often so it is. Finally so cannot wait to give you all the juicy intel on this new project and I have a date set but will talk more on a different post.






Chris

I Think I Am Getting Better At Handling Stress!

              It has been a whir wind of a last 2 years since coming off of YouTube and into the podcasting world, I admit I have shown my level of stress between then and towards the end of last year but recently I have seen change in my life, the way I deal with stress. I have been utilizing a lot of the tools that I have learned and I think things are starting to sink in now that I need to get things done and stop feeling down and sorry for myself and have to get down to the nitty gritty and I have been as you can see I have been quite busy lately and very much active on this here blog and also on social media not as much but getting into posting more often. Instagram goes up and down in the numbers but that's OK tho and I am use to it. Eventually I will have my break on Instagram to get more followers down the road.  The fact now I don't let it bother me even if I lose followers as it re builds up and there are people who are so dedicated to supporting me and the blog & podcast, I am ever forever grateful for having the fans. 


               I really am using a list of things I need to do, I just wrote down what needs to be printed off in the way of items for my board or to remind myself to record a podcast which mind you I am pretty good at remembering and I know my schedule a lot. I always write down what has to be done for events or whether its content related, I sure as heck know how to actually get things done on time. I know right now the scheduling is a tad off due to my very hectic schedule with events this fall as I have said many times in the past, this is my busy time of the year but it will be settling down in December and when things get quiet. I got a couple of things planned for my alumni and I getting back together for a possible Christmas get together to celebrate Christmas together. I will explain more next week in the mid week after the Autism Celebration event has concluded and things start to settle down a bit for me around the studio. 


              Finally, I like to go by a timetable, it gives me a bit more structure to my days or nights as I am writing this very, very late. Sometimes I do things off the cuff as I got nothing else to do and decide to write or just work on things and get a head start on things before they are due to be finished or ready for events for an example. Some of the content I can do off the cuff for example, these blog post ideas just come to my mined when I wake up in the morning and I just write. Sometimes my titles do not come till after I am done with the post so that is what I mean by off the cuff. I think I am getting better at the stress thing as I explained, I am just getting better at it and able to handle my work load a lot more and I always persevere through the thick and thin of things as well.



Chris