Mental Health Has Not Been So Great Lately....

          I have to say today's post wasn't easy to come up with and I say starting at the blank canvas of the blog on the back side of the website trying to come up with what to write and it finally came to me I want to talk about my Mental Health recently. First of all I was going to do a food review but then I ate before leaving to go out to Pickering for the day so that food review was thrown out the window but will happen again in the very nearby future indeed next time we are out there, I promise to do that for sure! Now my mental health hasn't been great and it started at the end of July into early with a situation which I will not name any names but I asked them to leave a group I run and come back as I did something stupid and they did only half so I think that is when the stress started was from there. Then being blocked for no reason but really I do not care at this point what they do, I won't say anything to them from here on out and that is honestly my choice I can only make. Also I lost friends over the weekend which I did something I regret doing now and that is I scratched my hand open and haven't done that in months now and honestly I do not want to be doing this to myself ever again. I need to work on that and I am going to. I have been self talking myself out of it but for the most part it has worked but I need to add one more thing to ensure it doesn't happen again. Now I was suppose to volunteer at a Kar Show Friday but I started to feel overwhelmed and I made the decision to focus on my mental health right now.


              Today is a better day so far but every couple of days I seem to still have those moments and I just do not know why it's happening. Maybe I am just am just overwhelmed right now and I am letting it just get to me perhaps. I shouldn't but least I am now recognizing what is going on with me in my life and it has indeed helped me in the long run but still work to be done honestly. However the fact I am able to know what is going on with me is a big plus. I honestly think that there is too much going on for me right now from keeping up with blog posts, podcasts and some other stuff that involves this very website that has now been put up on hold for right now. I will be talking about it this evening on the blog here so do not worry but right now I have to figure things right now and it is all about me right now and focusing on myself which is now a priority right now.



Chris

Knowing When To Stop or Slow Down....

            I haven't done one of these advice posts in a while. Sometimes you need know when to stop and the example I have is that I have not stopped in 7 months now up to the point of me just feeling burnt out but not clue how on earth I manage to keep on going or manage to continue. The point is sometimes you need to take a step back and say stop. You need a break from things and that is my flaw is that I always have to be doing something that is my issue honestly. But sometimes you just gotta say no, that's enough, take a break from whatever you are doing, whether you are a YouTuber, Podcaster or Blogger at some point you sure as heck do need a mental break from things and just sit back and relax and just have time to yourself but with me I just refused to do that and wait till the last minute on things no wonder I am stressed the heck out 24-7. It seems that I end up procrastinating till the last second but the problem is I pile it on too much at a time so that doesn't help whatsoever and it is my fault entirely to not stopping. This can be a great example to you guys to sometimes stop and rest you're mind which you need from time to time. I mean you cannot go without a break it is just not healthy whatsoever.


            Now sometimes you need to just slow down and not over do it in a day. I do recommend to do a schedule this way you guys know what the heck you are doing each and everyday and to limit what you do but I understand you gotta get things done but I mean for example for me if it is a day for the podcast, then that is my main focus for the day. Recently been focusing on two different things at once recently tho with both this blog and getting the podcasts out before I go away on holidays so it was understandable while I was multi tasking but sometimes you just gotta slow down and take your time and actually take time to yourself as well. Either way I hope this sort of helps you if you feel stressed out and just do not know what to do is to slow down or just say stop if it is non work related and you will feel much better and I feel a ton better since getting back from holidays with my parents and raring to go once again. Final note is that starting tomorrow, I will be writing blog posts on the day of the post going up. Everything is going back to normal and a special announcement post tomorrow as well. 



Chris

So Overwhelmed Right Now!

            Right now my mind is exploding with feeling overwhelmed with 2 Preview podcasts on the go plus this weeks regular episode. I just need to stay focused as Sunday is the first release of the preview podcasts. Yes I realized it is overlapping but you will see what I mean when we transition into the 11th season.  My worry is getting the recording done then taking too long to edit it and export the file so it can go up. That is my fear, I will procrastinate but with me having a list on my desktop, that will definitely help me. I think I am just feeling fear I will let you guys and have I ever let you guys down, well I did before but that was before and now I am getting better on sticking to a schedule and it seems to be getting better as things progress which is a good thing. I need to stop doubting myself and start to believe in myself more which I keep putting myself down which I honestly need to stop doubting and putting myself down. I think my confidence has been shook up. Maybe I am just letting the stress get to the better of me and I thought I am getting better handling my stress and it feels like I have gone back to my old ways. I should just take it one day at a time at this point and probably today I will get a chance to record the Amazing Race Canada or by the time you guys read this as I wrote this in the wee early morning as I always do everyday minus tomorrow's is already written and scheduled to go up due to me away out of town for the day with Larry.


              Either way I know I can do this if I put my mind to it. I think sometimes I do overthink things and I should just focus on one thing at a time and use my priority list to help me through everything.  My priority should be Big Brother 21 but it is still early in the week and I have till Saturday night to finish so there is plenty of time for me to get things done so I shouldn't really worry about it honestly. Today I know I will have one of the 2 podcasts out and ready to go for next week then the next one will be the Big Brother 21. So I got plenty of time before Sunday and even if I get the editing done on Sunday afternoon then that is fine but I should be recording on Friday at the most so I should be good. Anyways the schedule is Sunday, June 23rd, 2019- Big Brother 21 Preview Podcast @ 9 pm EST and Wednesday, June 26th, 2019- Amazing Race Canada 7 Preview Podcast also @ 9 pm EST. So the schedule will be pretty simple so there should be no issues with me keeping with the workload whatsoever.



Chris

Feels Like 2016 All Over Again....

           Right now I am not thinking straight right now.... As you know with the recent additions to the podcast I think I am just overwhelmed and not myself and I am so confused with things and people are literally worried about me right now. Honestly my mental state or mental health isn't all there right now. I need to learn to just deal with it and work with the schedule and I always record in the mornings so I should continue on with it honestly. Honestly this is only for a few weeks then I am down to 2 per weeks which is half of what the schedule is going to be starting next week so what the heck am I honestly complaining about. It's only a few freakin weeks honestly which isn't much and the final weeks of both Big Brother Canada & Survivor Edge of Extinction will go quite quickly. I just gotta work hard and make sure I am going to have it ready for the actual release at the new times that I have mentioned. 


              What did I mean it feels like 2016.... I just feel with everything going on right now it feels like how The Entertainment Man Talk Show ended in the final months of it's existence and I just do not want Everything About Reality TV ending in the same way that ended and if it ended anytime soon, it would definitely be on a good high note as of right now I am currently standing at 191 Episodes, 192 today as I recorded yet again today for the Preview of Amazing Race 31 which starts a week today which should be exciting honestly I should show the excitement levels. If I think of it, if it ends start of June to Mid June at the most which I do not know when the finale will be at this moment but I am sure I will have a few weeks off from this podcast and I think I will be not doing many off season podcasts, I am going to take the break I need without worrying about it. 


                 Honestly I do not want it to end up like almost 3 years ago as I was in a very dark place and honestly it felt like that tonight as I felt the control I had slipping through my fingers and I was going back into my old ways. I don't need to go back that way cause it wasn't a pretty face to see honestly and this all started back two days ago at the mall when visiting with Eric. I am just not with it and I am in need a mental break from doing this podcast which when I was on YouTube before this begun, I didn't have that break and it feels like that even now. When I was not in the right frame of mind which I did really stupid things to myself and it's no lies and honestly I do not wanna go back into that depression and corner like I was in and I assure you this is not going to happen again. I am just currently in a funk and need to get out of it and fast.



Chris