I Haven't Been Transparent With You All Lately...

            I haven't been transparent with you guys much... I mean I have been going through some personal struggles with a friendship ending, which I do not really want to talk about it but I needed to be more transparent that depression has been real lately. I have been struggling and having a really hard time. I've kept and bottling things up which is not a healthy thing to do whatsoever. I need to start journaling how I am feeling and the book is next to me but I haven't yet written and I need to get to it and start journaling in it daily will help me release all this anger that I am feeling inside of me right now. I feel so angry at the situation and bottling it up right now doesn't help whatsoever. 

           Also my grandma's 1 year anniversary since she passed away was yesterday and I was feeling it yesterday. I noticed on streams how angry I was and I feel it this morning so I have decided to stop streaming video games all together and just do videos with behind the scenes and the weekly just chatting streams. I will be deleting the gaming content and I will be rebranding the channel but I will talk more about that on Wednesday's post. So I feel bad that I've let you guys down with not being transparent and I've noticed the hit it's taken on YouTube and Social Media. I promise to do better, be more transparent and be more open and honest with you guys moving forward. It will take me some time to start being more transparent and something I am going to start doing and planning to post more and be interactive with you all moving forward.

**** Update **** I have been diagnosed with Anxiety and going on medication, this will most definitely help me out. 

I hope you enjoy the rest of your Monday and as always I will talk to you all tomorrow!

Chris

ChrisBOnTheWeb Has Had Some Struggles

            Ever since Friday, ChrisBOnTheWeb has been all over the place. First the blog wasn't posted up till the evening and The CBOTW Show ended up an hour later then usual. That was strikes one and two within a day of this mess happening. Trust me I wasn't happy with the mishap after mishap and I should of done better when it came to posting up the blog and podcast I should of had the alarm going off at 9 am so I can work on both things and make sure things went out in a timely matter.             Now strike 3 was Sunday when I scheduled the blog for 1106 pm EST at night not at 9 am which gives it 3 hours to process to all the platforms and links goes out at 1 pm EDT. normally. I felt at the lowest of my all lows when it came to ChrisBOnTheWeb and I stopped writing this blog midway for the night Sunday evening to go to bed. 

           Now there is a lesson to all of this in the end to check everything online before it goes out and there is a limit to it like 20 minute window before a post goes out so meaning you can only schedule a post on Facebook 20 minutes or longer prior to the post is actually goes up. However this is about the podcast and there is a bigger limit as I need at least 3 hours to prior so it will process and that is what happened on Sunday. Hopefully this week, I will stay on track and bounce back from this and I know I will, just gotta stay positive in the end. Anyways that is the post for today, I will talk to you all tomorrow for another blog post and I hope you guys have a fantastic rest of your day and will talk to you all tomorrow.

Chris