So Sick of This Heat....

              Honestly I hate this heat... It has been HOT and when I said hot, I mean hot, I am talking about in the early 30's and we do not have air conditioning here in the house so it is quite hot, well minus the studio which is in the basement and is quite cool in here everyday in the summer but in the winter its colder and the heater has to go on. But anyways back to this heatwave here in Ontario. It's hard to sleep at night the last couple of nights, to a point I am up till 1 or 2 am EST in the morning and up around 1 pm which sucks. Not because of my back problem its more the heat that doesn't help me with my sleep situation and I was sleeping well before and even during the website work that had already start. Maybe the fact it was too hot in the house it doesn't help but should be cooler the fact I have my fan on full blast.


                 I mean it is frustrating to deal with sleeping in this heat but not only that but it is hard to deal with it during the daytime and trying to stay cool here in the house...  I mean the days that I go out to hang with my friends and have a social life, then I go to the mall and it is more definitely much more better there then here as the Mall has A/C and it truly does keep me cool while I am there but some days, too cool as they blast the AC full blast but hot days like these it is well worth it! I am totally trying to deal with this stinkin' heat and it is tough but I am trying to keep a positive mind of frame throughout this heat and dressing in cooler clothes and not wear dark colors right now as it is not a great idea to wear dark colors. But I am truly hanging in there and I cannot wait for fall to come as that is one of my favorite seasons of the year on top of spring!



Chris

Depression...

Lately, I have been feeling really depressed with people accusing me of starting drama when they are the one's messaging me and starting the conversation. Then losing 4 friends over that situation, so I think I am staying with the people who care about me, because every time something like this or a friend turns their back on me like the one person did recently and I tell you, when I get depressed it lingers for 4 - 5 days sometimes more... Sometimes I can go out of it where I don't smile anymore... I haven't smiled much lately with the recent drama in my life... Also friends turning on me for no apparent reason as well that is making me a bit on the depressed side. 

That is not the only thing that I am depressed about is the fact I have not been in a relationship with anyone since my EX Girlfriend down in Ohio. I have found it hard and a struggle to find someone I can share with and has the same passions as I do. But someday soon I hope to find a girlfriend and never know where that will take me, I could end up married and maybe even find myself being a dad in the near future. But honestly I just gotta remain being myself and try to laugh a bit more and I have in the last 24 hours now watching the Meathead, Arrrrchie, Little Gorl and The Dingbat aka All In The Family from the 70's. For those who don't me that well yet and who read my blog didn't know I love the old TV comedy shows. So that is my positive get away from the life drama being thrown at me watching a few or in my case almost an entire season of All In The Family. And it lifts up my spirits quickly. Other thing that helps is me listening to T Swift (Taylor Swift)- Shake It Off https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nfWlot6h_JM or Avicci- Wake me up! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5y_KJAg8bHI  Hope this helps you with depression if you got it and feeling depressed, take a listen to it. 


Have a great Tuesday!


Chris