Showing posts with label Not been myself. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Not been myself. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 16, 2020

I Admit I Haven't Been Myself Lately....

              I do admit it, I haven't been myself and stress and handling so much at once doesn't really help either which is definitely not a good thing. I think I am just taking on too much and letting the drama get to me and that obviously rowels me up and I end up not sleeping at night or I just end up back in a slump again. I think a few things that is probably bothering me is not just the workload for ChrisBOnTheWeb but also since Ruth Ann and Kevin passed, I have struggled with it recently and I am not using this for views I am just being open and honest and I have been keeping it very quiet to today's post and only post I will make. I know it will take some time to heal and I am glad I continued to work on ChrisBOnTheWeb and keep myself busy and probably the best thing to keep busy and my mind off the pain.  


               The next thing is the stuff going on behind the scenes here and it has been completely crazy drama recently and I am trying to steer clear of it happening but it's been almost a week since it happened and things have slowly quieted down for us and we're doing everything that we can to make sure there is no more problems. Anyways let's move on to my mental health has not been the best lately with this pandemic recently and it's actually started to drag me down where I have been stuck in the house a lot more then usual and just not use to being at home all the time, I am use to going out, being with friends, going to Staples and I know I have to hang in there and there will be a day and time when I will be able to do that all again hopefully soon but for the most I have to get my parents to drive me and pick me up which is fine with me. I will bounced back and I already have, I have been smiling in the last 12 + hours and it is definitely a start. I am just taking it one day at a time and the fact I have started being up during the night again doesn't help but I am going to lie down and sleep when my body tells me to. I think it has to do with the fact I do not really go anywhere and that I am home majority of the time so my body is a bit thrown off but again I am taking one day at a time and honestly that is what I need to do.


Chris

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

I Miss You Guys! I've Not Been Myself...

           I felt like writing to you guys to say I miss you guys a lot. I haven't been myself lately. As you know my high school teacher has passed away and it's really affected me as he meant the world but I am going to do a post about him next week remembering him next week as right now I am not ready right now.  If I wrote it I know I will be pausing as I will tear up but that's ok, I'm mourning and this is why I have paused majority of the content that has gone out minus the podcast which will be out tomorrow as normally and I will be in bed at 11 pm no later and up early enough to record and start editing in the morning so I can get this out later but other then that no blog posts between today and Saturday and with Saturday being the first post back and I should be OK but I needed time off from some of the content. Some of the content, I cannot shift around the timetable for that but trying to stay on a normal regular schedule. What have I been up to for the last few days? Well I took the weekend and Monday off and yesterday started to work on Power Rangers In Space which I am so close and today more then likely I will be finished finally! Which means the announcement is more then likely coming to the blog and also to social media and what to expect. 


              I haven't been myself honestly with dealing with the passing of my teacher and kind of why I have been MIA from the blog and at times very, very quiet on social media.  I am still pretty much still around but not been active on the site too much like I would like to but I need to make my return and been fighting it to when I want to return and this is why I have made the decision to write a post to update you where I have been. Anyways I will be back again very soon and thank you for understanding and my next post is definitely coming on Saturday and again I miss you guys and we will chat soon but in the meantime please do take care and if you need to reach out, I am on Twitter/Instagram if you need me or wanna say hi, I am going to still continue to update throughout the next couple of days and working on the Power Rangers Podcast and what not.




Chris