Motivating Myself and Updates!

                 I am fighting through all these changes and fighting with my mental health on a daily basis and it will be a week tomorrow since The CBOTW Show ended and just gotta keep fighting and get into this role of solo projects. This week in general has been hard and I have to get a good rhythm with the notes as I am giving myself about a week to a week and half to finish up the notes then I have to email them to Larry and then get right ahead with the SPD and Mystic Force.  Getting motivated to get the notes done and watch the show and the beauty of it all we are getting down lower amount as we continue on down the long winding road of Samurai which is not as long as you guys think really. It's coming this year, end of this year to be exact. I also have to motivate myself to work on notes for the rebooted Entertainment Man Podcast which is awaiting it's return in a month tomorrow to be exact as I said June 1st is the re-launch and we're moving to a Monday instead of a Sunday.  

              Just gotta keep grinding and when I feel tired to take a break and play video games which I did Wednesday night. because its a long haul still to go as I still gotta watch SPD and Mystic Force which you all know by now I dreading to watch as it doesn't seem to interest me in a season and probably isn't going to be in this batch but we'll have to wait and see. Enough of Power Rangers Podcast, I have some great ideas and brought them up to my management team and friends, especially alum that I wanna open up more about The Video Projects Team aka TVPT which for those who know did not end well on good terms with the staff as they got up and quit and not made myself or anyone on the team aware of them quitting. I know I hid the fact that team ever did exist and it is time to come out with the honest truth with why and I wanna dedicate a bunch of episodes to it on and off during the 3rd season of the podcast. I think you guys deserve the truth why I have hidden it for almost 7 years now why I have buried the fact that it did exist. That will be coming near the start of the 3rd season and may be an extended episode. Between both podcasts I am busy and trying to motivate myself and that is what matters and going to keep trying if I do not succeed the first time. Have a great weekend!

Chris

My Motivation Hasn't Been All There Lately....

                   The last while, I am noticed that I haven't been motivated to work whatsoever as I have been dealing with depression and mental health being stuck in Isolation nearly 8 months now and it has been a struggle. I have been really trying to get the workload done and finished and I managed to finish it. I have to realize this, I have to put my priorities in order and I have been good to do that. With not being as motivated has put both Larry and I behind schedule with the Collaboration Podcast and it is my fault. honestly. I wasn't prioritizing myself properly. Today for example I know what I have to do is get the podcast recorded this morning for the weekend, edit and I am sure while I edit I will end up start the next collab podcast while waiting for the recording of the current one to happen. Anyways I need to remember to know when to stop with the workload and I need to stop at like 3 or 4 pm EST or even take breaks to help me get refocused and keep on the right track.

                    I know I haven't been overly active on Social much and lost tons of followers but I need to remember to make posts from time to time.  In the end my Mental Health is the most important thing for me to get under control first and that is why some days you don't see much in making many posts at this moment and I promise you guys I need to get posting a ton more during the day. I made a video post yesterday which is very rare I do anymore as I am just busy with the work. I need to be more on the ball with being active on Social Medias and I know when I am depressed like I have been, I tend to not say anything.  I should be a bit more open with you guys to be honest to how I am feeling and the fact I have been working non stop doesn't help with my depression nor the motivation of bringing out content especially on time like today which is extremely late coming out but that's OK we have lives to live. In the end I really need to buck down on social media posts more and start making a ton of posts as recently lost a ton of followers.

Chris

My Confidence and Motivation Has Been Up and Down Lately...

             First part of this post I would like to talk about is my confidence. I haven't honestly been myself lately. It has been a struggle on a daily basis to get things done on a timely matter which last night was a prime example as Everything About Reality TV was extremely late last night and I will retweet it again in case you guys missed it from late last night. Now I need and promised you guys to be on track and going to try my hardest for the rest of the week. I just gotta get the confidence back and being able to believe in myself which has honestly been shaken. I have been feeling like I can't do this and I was ready to just give up honestly. However over the last couple of years, I have been teaching myself to not quit and give up, to keep the faith in myself and it has helped but this has been one of the hardest times for me with Season 10 of my podcast spanning from end of February to the end of this month (June) it has taken a toll on me as it has been the longest season I have done yet to this day.  However, I was all for the longer season and I am currently struggling with the transition. We all our struggles from time to time and it isn't easy but we seem to get through things. I think now I am feeling a lot more confident now then I did a 24 - 48 hours ago, I just figured out the issue or issues and from there solve the problem then things suddenly sound great again. I had a bit of an argument over our holiday with my parents as I do not like to know last minute. That isn't me, I like to know in advance not the last possible moment. So that didn't help as I needed to tie loose ends before the podcast is on a week and a half hiatus since I will be away down in the U.S. in Boston for 6 days from July 5th - and back on the 11th. But all of that will be explained on Thursday as I have all the information for you guys what is going on and originally was going to do a throwback Thursday story but I am going to wait a week for it.


              The next point and the last point in this post is the motivation. Recently I haven't felt the motivation to get ahead of the game and I hoped to get it done by Friday night but then I could of stayed up extremely late and recorded and start the editing process but I didn't. Plus my sleep has been dragging me down to a point I just wasn't motivated enough to continue on working on it but either way it went up but usually I am very motivated usually but recently that hasn't been the case and maybe I was just tired and the lack of sleep I was getting at the time so that could of had a lot to do with the fact as well. But either way or, I am back to writing posts for the days I am away from CBOTW and you will be seeing over the next few days an updated schedule again here on the website with the vacation day and podcast revised schedule. I will talk more about it by Thursday as I said. It will take some time to build up my confidence and motivation and just gotta keep working on it and not giving up.




Chris