Monday, June 24, 2019

My Confidence and Motivation Has Been Up and Down Lately...

             First part of this post I would like to talk about is my confidence. I haven't honestly been myself lately. It has been a struggle on a daily basis to get things done on a timely matter which last night was a prime example as Everything About Reality TV was extremely late last night and I will retweet it again in case you guys missed it from late last night. Now I need and promised you guys to be on track and going to try my hardest for the rest of the week. I just gotta get the confidence back and being able to believe in myself which has honestly been shaken. I have been feeling like I can't do this and I was ready to just give up honestly. However over the last couple of years, I have been teaching myself to not quit and give up, to keep the faith in myself and it has helped but this has been one of the hardest times for me with Season 10 of my podcast spanning from end of February to the end of this month (June) it has taken a toll on me as it has been the longest season I have done yet to this day.  However, I was all for the longer season and I am currently struggling with the transition. We all our struggles from time to time and it isn't easy but we seem to get through things. I think now I am feeling a lot more confident now then I did a 24 - 48 hours ago, I just figured out the issue or issues and from there solve the problem then things suddenly sound great again. I had a bit of an argument over our holiday with my parents as I do not like to know last minute. That isn't me, I like to know in advance not the last possible moment. So that didn't help as I needed to tie loose ends before the podcast is on a week and a half hiatus since I will be away down in the U.S. in Boston for 6 days from July 5th - and back on the 11th. But all of that will be explained on Thursday as I have all the information for you guys what is going on and originally was going to do a throwback Thursday story but I am going to wait a week for it.

              The next point and the last point in this post is the motivation. Recently I haven't felt the motivation to get ahead of the game and I hoped to get it done by Friday night but then I could of stayed up extremely late and recorded and start the editing process but I didn't. Plus my sleep has been dragging me down to a point I just wasn't motivated enough to continue on working on it but either way it went up but usually I am very motivated usually but recently that hasn't been the case and maybe I was just tired and the lack of sleep I was getting at the time so that could of had a lot to do with the fact as well. But either way or, I am back to writing posts for the days I am away from CBOTW and you will be seeing over the next few days an updated schedule again here on the website with the vacation day and podcast revised schedule. I will talk more about it by Thursday as I said. It will take some time to build up my confidence and motivation and just gotta keep working on it and not giving up.



Sunday, June 23, 2019

This Week Will Be A Busy Week For Me!

              This week is going to be one of the biggest weeks for me in the podcasting world as this is the most I will be recording in a week. Now as you know one goes up tonight, Big Brother US Season 21 Preview Podcast then Wednesday The Amazing Race Canada Season 7 Preview Podcast. Thursday is the normal scheduled podcast with The Amazing Race 31 11th Leg and Season Finale Podcast all in one podcast. That is not just it either but end of this week, Big Brother US 21 Recap for week 1 of Big Brother US 21 so all of these podcasts will be out at 9 pm ES. Either way I will be indeed with recording but as you probably notice on Twitter and Instagram 1 of the two preview podcasts was recorded and it was in advance to when it is going up and I have it stored on my external drive waiting to go for Wednesday. Now I just recorded this morning as the last couple of days I was extremely busy or I was feeling meh to a point of not feeling up to par to record the podcast. Anyways I can get it done today and I already started writing blogs for when I go away so I am currently multi tasking right now hence the reason this week will indeed be a busy week for me in the way of getting content out. I actually got 2 of 7 done as it will be a full week for me going to be away for the week down in Boston. 

               In the way of podcasts, 4 I think is the most that I have done over the years of being a podcaster and I cannot believe the fact I am putting up 4 episodes this week and I know you guys love it when I post up a ton of content whether it was on the website or it was on the podcast, you guys are getting a ton of content and this is going to be another busy summer ahead of me before things settle down in the fall when I cover Survivor only and things are a lot calmer then it has been for the past 6 months, nearly 7 months now. You know the way I think of it, busy is always and good to keep busy and it really keeps my mind busy from the drama and other daily life problems that is thrown at me I always have my workload, friends and family that are always there for me when things get rough and it seems to help. I am making a promise to have it all up on time this week, however let's hope that there is no tech issues with the website the podcast goes on but im sure things will be fine as things been running smoothly lately.


Saturday, June 22, 2019

I Told You 2019 Year Was Going To Be Huge!

                  Being now half way, more then half way through the year now, I can say this year has been a crazy year and has been such a fun year for the podcast, this website and the blog. I will start with the website. As you all know, has been down since September of 2018 of last year till January of this year when I moved the entire website to here on blogger and it has proven to be a huge SUCCESS and yes I capitalized the word "Success" because it has proven to do well under the new provider and the price of the domain is so reasonable too but that doesn't matter. I have been thinking about going to a blogging website with domain so it was no secret that I was thinking about it and I know I had a temporary address but that now changed but was a huge step for me and has proved a lot as the views have grown rapidly and very fast and I am always looking at the analytics for the website, pages within the website and also the blog some days the views are really high so its amazing to watch on a regular basis. The next part is the Podcasts. Ever since covering Music City on CMT since their first season last year it really blew up my podcast in a good way and of course we won't know about a 3rd season till late Summer in early August and yes I will be doing it one way or another. 

                     The blog has been doing extremely well, it has been getting more and more noticed, no more attention then it has been from when it started so moving to a blogger website was the best move as it has been more noticed then when I was on the other provider that went ban happy with my website and I almost wanted to abandon it but finally did in September till the domain you guys are on now expired with the original provider now with this website if that makes any sense at all. However the blog continues to surprise me honestly and I am sure as things continue it will be a continuing success for years to come. I am excited for whats coming up next plus I am sure there will be some Power Rangers Podcasts coming in the fall as I always promise from year to year 4 episodes to come out on my website per year in two different sessions. One usually late Spring and one in the fall as it depends on my schedule. 2 per session usually as we do not wanna over stress ourselves out but that is on the docket this fall indefinitely. Also will be back at the Ukrainian and Polish Festivals this year, The Royal Winter Fair, Tyrone Parade of Lights, Port Perry Parade are all on the list as usual and I made some tweaks and changes with a few events this year, no food truck this year and as you know I made the big change and not bringing CBOTW to the Autism Celebration this year. Either way the rest of this year will be indeed amazing and excited to see what else this year brings to me! 


Friday, June 21, 2019

We Need To Talk.... Serious Talk Right Now!

               Right now things are not going too well for me, stressed out to the max thinking I am not going to be able to handle the transition and normally it's not too bad but with the stress of trying to figure things out, it hasn't been easy transition plus trying to schedule around my vacation time in July when I am out in Boston and Maine for a holiday to see the East Coast in the USA. Anyways I was starting to get those negative thoughts in my head and I have been trying to keep a level head on things with positivity but recently reverted back to the negative Nelly and it isn't me to be this way normally. Also I have been feeling like I have burnt myself out to a point I am starting to question myself as a podcaster and if I really need a break from things. However the issue that I am having is the fact I already agreed to continue on with the podcast during the summer months ago so it was really out of my hands honestly. I cannot do anything about it, when I say something I stick to my word on things and that is the kind of person I am, I like to keep my promises and so what if I am a little burnt out right now, not like I have gotten a bit more of energy or a second wind on things when I have started to feel this way and honestly I have been only podcasting for a few weeks with a once a once a week schedule.

                 So it is not easy last while honestly as I have been struggling to transition seasons. Now what I could of done was just continued on with the 10th season but yet my folder that holds up all the notes is pretty full up now and time to transition to another folder as this one has officially filled up as the season wraps, the folder fills up very quickly. Maybe a lot of this has to stem with the fact that today marks me leaving YouTube for good and being retired from the platform, maybe that is what is on my mind the past week as I was and have been thinking about it. It has been a long 3 years and I have done such an amazing job with rebuilding the website and the CBOTW brand and there is nothing wrong with a break and it has been very easy few weeks however things have really sped up and yes I realize I took a blog break yesterday as I wasn't thinking too clearly honestly. I started to think clearly and I thought about you guys honestly. I wanna say thank you for the continuous love and support, through the thick and thin of things, I always manage to get myself out of issues I am having with Chris B On The Web and I do this for you guys, not just for myself but for you guys as well.


Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Everything About Reality TV Podcast 10th Season Continuing?

                 I just found out that Amazing Race 31 is ending next week so you are wondering am I just going to continue on with the season right through the summer as I originally planned? I know I announced the schedule already but what I should of done was wait and announce the schedule but as you can tell here on the website it is schedule... So what you are probably going to ask is the summer season going to be a new season from the 10th season? I think that is what the best for the podcast as the current season has now gone on for a very long time now and it is time to just wrap it up and move on to the next season which mind you I will be having no break whatsoever. I will be diving right into the next season so it is sounding like I will be running back to back to back to back seasons from Season 9 into Season 10, then into Season 11, then right into the 12th season in the fall. If I am thinking what I have in the back of my mind is I probably will end up not having a break till near Christmas which will be a well deserved break for this podcaster and you can imagine between all that I will be also working on Power Ranger Podcasts between too so I will still be busy one way or another. So the schedule still as follows for the Summer:

Preview Podcast Schedule:

Sunday, June 23rd, 2019, 9 pm EST: Big Brother 21 Preview Podcast

Wednesday, June 26th, 2019, 9 pm EST: Amazing Race Canada 7 Preview Podcast

Regular Schedule:

Wednesdays, 9 pm EST: Amazing Race Canada 7 Recap

Fridays, 9 pm EST: Big Brother 21 Recap

                 Like I said in the previous post I will be on holidays at the start of the month and hopefully back a few days before my aunt comes in from Western Canada and I get time to catch up on the podcast and if I have to double up I will. Other then that the rest of the summer I am planning to be here for you guys with the odd day unavailable as I am heading to a cottage for a day so the odd time but for the most part I am here for you guys and planning to work on the other collab too but it will be another hectic summer for me and excited to start this next season... This week has been crazy thus far and I have been either writing notes on casts for the upcoming seasons of Big Brother 21 and Amazing Race Canada 7 so this week has indeed been a test for me to see if I can handle the pressure or not and I think I did a fine job with the prep and recording as well. It is called priorities and I have all week to get those done and ready for you guys to tune into the podcast. This schedule and plans for a 11th season is my final decision from here on out, I promise to not change anything else from here on out.


Tuesday, June 18, 2019

So Overwhelmed Right Now!

            Right now my mind is exploding with feeling overwhelmed with 2 Preview podcasts on the go plus this weeks regular episode. I just need to stay focused as Sunday is the first release of the preview podcasts. Yes I realized it is overlapping but you will see what I mean when we transition into the 11th season.  My worry is getting the recording done then taking too long to edit it and export the file so it can go up. That is my fear, I will procrastinate but with me having a list on my desktop, that will definitely help me. I think I am just feeling fear I will let you guys and have I ever let you guys down, well I did before but that was before and now I am getting better on sticking to a schedule and it seems to be getting better as things progress which is a good thing. I need to stop doubting myself and start to believe in myself more which I keep putting myself down which I honestly need to stop doubting and putting myself down. I think my confidence has been shook up. Maybe I am just letting the stress get to the better of me and I thought I am getting better handling my stress and it feels like I have gone back to my old ways. I should just take it one day at a time at this point and probably today I will get a chance to record the Amazing Race Canada or by the time you guys read this as I wrote this in the wee early morning as I always do everyday minus tomorrow's is already written and scheduled to go up due to me away out of town for the day with Larry.

              Either way I know I can do this if I put my mind to it. I think sometimes I do overthink things and I should just focus on one thing at a time and use my priority list to help me through everything.  My priority should be Big Brother 21 but it is still early in the week and I have till Saturday night to finish so there is plenty of time for me to get things done so I shouldn't really worry about it honestly. Today I know I will have one of the 2 podcasts out and ready to go for next week then the next one will be the Big Brother 21. So I got plenty of time before Sunday and even if I get the editing done on Sunday afternoon then that is fine but I should be recording on Friday at the most so I should be good. Anyways the schedule is Sunday, June 23rd, 2019- Big Brother 21 Preview Podcast @ 9 pm EST and Wednesday, June 26th, 2019- Amazing Race Canada 7 Preview Podcast also @ 9 pm EST. So the schedule will be pretty simple so there should be no issues with me keeping with the workload whatsoever.


Monday, June 17, 2019

Video Games Updates

           Today post I want to update you guys on the video games I am currently still on. Now I am playing a game I haven't touched in a very long time honestly. The game I am referring to is Minecraft. Yes I went back to my old world to start dismantling the house which was the first thing I dismantled but what I did was gut it entirely, removed the windows and the roof and it was an open concept. Then the garden center was taken down and moved under water which mind you it was tough due to build but built the garden center first and moved all that to a smaller garden center. The after that I dug out where the garden center to put in foundation for the football stadium. So then I built up the structure by moving the wall over towards the end of the one end so it looked like the actual wall of the former house as the original house as part of the house, 2 walls remained in tact to become part of the stadium as displayed in the picture above. Then the barn came down as I transferred the animals elsewhere took the roof and tore the walls and floor out gutted the floor first. Also spawner is gone too so I can make room for the stadium. Right now I am digging out the ground where the spawner and barn was to put in foundation.

                Now with Isaac, I have been mainly focused on Minecraft recently but when I do play it, I do very well on it. I have been to the Mom fight at the very end and the heart but yet I ended up dying in the end which is not good honestly but getting closer and closer to finishing up the challenge with the spider challenge or whatever it is called and one of these days I will end up winning and it will indeed be a happy day when I beat it finally. Now finally on the list as there is currently 3 games I am playing which I have now mentioned on here but the last game I would like to mention is The Messenger. Right now I am currently stuck on the game at a certain point and honestly I have put the game on the wayside for now and not played it much recently. Those are the 3 games I have played and honorable mention that I started to play Starcraft again but that was put to the way side as well but it is fun to play again for old time sake and will get back to it eventually.